20 weeks and need to start packing

I felt the baby actually KICK for the first time Tuesday. It was a really amazing feeling. But really, really weird. Then last night while watching Top Chef he started kicking a lot. It's such a weird feeling I grabbed Shawn's arm to kind of brace myself. You know that test you have done at the eye doctor where they blow air in your eye? Well it always freaks me out, I know it won't hurt but it's so odd! That's how the kicking feels. I'm sure I'll get used to it, but for know it's strange.

Here are some new pictures from today, at 20 weeks. Half way there! I just started getting really, really excited. I can't wait to meet him.

We move in 9 days and I've done jack squat except for cleaning out some drawers! I really hate moving, but my plan is to really try and focus on it all weekend. Fingers crossed

19 Weeks and Counting

New pictures of me today at 19 weeks and P.S. Maternity clothes are soooo comfy, minus the fact that the belly itches from that thing on the jeans all the time.

Spring is (almost) alive (with the sound of music!)

Hello world! Spring is almost here! I'm so excited. I have the windows and doors open and totally wearing flip-flops! Not a lot of new news with the little Bubble. The Baby Bible (aka What to Expect When Your Expecting) says that I'll start forgetting things, which drives me crazy because I have a memory like an elephant (no jokes please)but yesterday I got all dressed and was out the door ready for my
2nd doctors appointment and tada! It wasn't even yesterday! It was today. I didn't even end up going today because Shawn is getting ready to go to Chicago this weekend to work with an artist so has stuff to get ready for that so I rescheduled it, but I was so annoyed that I was a whole day off!

The last few weeks have been just a constant blur of research on all kinds of subjects, The Bradley Method, Doulas, Birthing Tubs, Balls, and Breastfeeding. Some of you who read my blog know me in the real world and would know that when I was 16 I had breast reduction surgery. One of my moms biggest concerns then was that I would still be able to breastfeed, my surgeon assured us I would because of the way she performed the surgery (I will spare you the details), but in the last few weeks I've been getting really nervous that I won't be able to. I really, really, really, do not want to have to formula feed, so I've been researching different herbs and stuff to take to make sure I produce enough milk. I'm praying that all will be ok.

It's also weird how worried and paranoid I am all the time. It only really happens at night but I get really worried that something is wrong with the baby. I have felt him move (slightly) a few times and then since my sonogram I haven't, so I'm all freaked. And then Sunday morning I woke up and realized I had been sleeping on my stomach so I woke Shawn up almost in tears and tried frantically to get a hold of my mom. She assured me that I did not in fact crush him and he's ok, but I can't help but be worried about every little thing. It's so amazing the changes that happen to your body, amazing but scary too because you're not sure if they're normal or not.


We're getting ready to move too. I'm so excited! You may have noticed from that picture I posted that we have a very sparsely decorated apartment. The reason being is because I never really liked the apartment and wanted to wait to decorate until I picked a place out. But we got a house. 3 bedrooms,fully finished basement which will be Shawn's studio/office, 3.5 bathrooms, deck, and a little place for me to plant flowers. I'm not much of a gardener but I'm looking forward to planting some pansies and whatever else I can plant. We move the end of this month so If I'm MIA that's why

tootles!

Baby Bubble is ............

So our little Bubble is a BOY! We just got back from our sonogram which was amazing! He was in a face down position almost the whole time because the TECH said I was having a Braxton Hick (even showed us the contraction on the screen) and it had pushed him down and he got a little stuck :-) But then he started tapping his foot and waving his hand. And then he did something really funny he started scratching his butt! We weren't sure if we were going to be able to figure out what he was today because of his position and the umbilical cord was between his legs but the tech kept pushing my belly down and finally he flipped and the tech said "we have a penis!". Based on my measurements I'm due August 7th.

I'm pretty sure we have a name for him, but I'm reluctant to share it because as much as I'm loving the name now I know that I am the worlds most indecisive person, so I think I'm going to run it around in my head for a little before saying anything.

What will the Bubble be?

So tomorrows the big day. We have a sonogram tomorrow and I have my fingers crossed that we get to find out what we're having. I still think it's a boy. I can't really explain why, but it's just this feeling that I have. But my mom has said a few times that she thinks it's a girl. Either way I just want a healthy baby. I'm still really excited about the baby. Every night (not exaggerating) I have dreams about the baby. Some sweet, some really weird. The other day I was laying on the bed and I started feeling like my stomach was growling. And then I realized that I had just eaten and that my What to Expect When Your Expecting book mentioned something about baby movements sometimes being confused with hunger pains, so I laid really still and realized it was the baby, really moving. So I called Shawn in so he could feel and he claims he felt like a kick, but I didn't so I'm not so sure about that one. But it was such an amazing feeling! I haven't even met this baby yet and already the overwhelming feelings I have for him or her is amazing and very surprising. So keep your fingers crossed about tomorrow :-)