A change of states

An opportunity has presented it's self for Shawn and I to move to New York. And we think we're going to take it. A few weeks ago Sony Studios closed and Shawn's managers have been working with some people to open a new studio in Manhattan. His managers want Shawn and his partner to be apart of the whole thing and have offered them positions at the new studio. So about a week ago we talked about it and decided that we would move back to NY in November of 08. But something clicked early this week where we were like "Why not go now?" Our lease is up on our apartment in November, we had already started looking at our other options here and we found one we LOVE a 3 bedroom apartment style home (that's what the website calls them, I guess because they have garages and look like houses) Anyhow, we were planning on moving there in November and then when our lease was up there we were going to move to New York. But for some reason now it just seems like it would work if we go now. Shawn has contacted his managers (3 in all) and some studios and they are in talks now to iron details out. One of his managers wife is an executive at Google, so her and her husband (Shawn's manager) are going to help me find a job up there. We already started looking at apartments there, and I was shocked to see not how expensive they are but how SMALL! But that's the price to live there I guess. As of now nothing is completely set in stone and as long as things continue to go the way they are I'll get to be a New Yorker!

The best thing

This happens to be one of the best things I've ever seen.....

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I may be young....But my body is 65

At some point in my 19 years my body started falling apart. First it was my knee. When I was in like 2nd grade this kid knocked my down on the gym floor and ever since then I would have pain on and off in my right knee. Well with in the last 2 months the pain is constant! I can't even get up without steadying myself on something and grimacing in pain! It's awful! I even called my GRANDMOTHER to ask her for her knee Doctors name. Then starting Saturday afternoon I went to lay down on my left side and when I got up my neck stayed hanging to the left. The only good thing is the pain in my knee literally stopped all weekend. I swear! Well I woke up this morning and my neck felt better but guess what!? The pain in my knee is back! Right now I'm sitting on the floor with my legs curled up and I the pain in my knee is so excruciating! I wan't to stretch it out but I'm scared for what's going to happen!

I don't now if I mentioned but I'm not working anymore. Like 2 weeks ago I went into work and 5 minutes after I got there my boss pulled me in and said that money is so tight he can't even finish paying me for today. UGH! I was so pissed! I couldn't believe it! I'm not looking for anything right now. I'm going to wait until little Shawn is back in school. So me and him are just hanging out for the summer and wathcing Soap Opera's.

Ok....Im done now. Im going to go try and and un-curl my knee...Wish me luck!

1 Corinthians 13

1 If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didn’t love others, I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God’s secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing. 3 If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it;[a] but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing.
4 Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5 or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 6 It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.
8 Prophecy and speaking in unknown languages[b] and special knowledge will become useless. But love will last forever! 9 Now our knowledge is partial and incomplete, and even the gift of prophecy reveals only part of the whole picture! 10 But when full understanding comes, these partial things will become useless.
11 When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. 12 Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity.[c] All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.
13 Three things will last forever—faith, hope, and love—and the greatest of these is love.

Epics

Engagement Pictures Are Here

Finally I took time to post my engagement pictures to MySpace. I'm really happy with the way they turned out. Shawn and I were extra nervous because I don't consider myself very photogenic and Shawn doesn't like his smile. We had so much fun that day though because our wonderful photographer Ashley and I kept having to tell Shawn jokes or I had to tickle him to get him to smile, but at the end of the day we ended up with a lot of great shots!

Click the link to my profile on Myspace to see them....in the meantime I'll post a few of my favorites.
http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=28560664&albumId=776750

Drive Responsibly

When I was younger I had friends that I thought were best friends, or even close friends that betrayed me at every turn. After I came out of those situations I promised myself that I would never allow myself to be placed in there again. Because of that I have built up a wall and don't allow a lot of people to get close to me for a very long time. After that situation all I had was my family to trust. But what do you do when the ones closest to you break that trust that you have given them? How do you come back from that? How do you not end up feeling hurt and betrayed? When someone that close breaks that trust, to preserve the relationship are you supposed to just forget? I won't say forgive, because I believe in forgiveness, and everyone should be able to forgive and get forgiveness, but how do you get back to where you were?

Who decides what's best for you? When your younger obviously your parents do. But when do you start knowing for yourself? And more importantly when are you able to decided you know best?

When you see a bridge that is clearly burning you quickly try to put the fire out, once it's apparent that the fire is going to continue to burn do you just walk away, or do you continue to dowse it with water in hopes that you'll be able to preserve even a small portion?

And just because someone says they love you and that their motives are out of love, does that mean they know best?

As a young child your constantly taught to take responsibilities of your actions. Does it sometimes feel that others won't let you as an adult take responsibility for your happiness? It's so easy for people to let go and let you take the fall for the bad, but what about taking the fall for the good?

I'm learning more and more that I have to be responsible not only for the bad things that I do, but you know what? I have to be responsible for the good as well. After all I'm the sole person that has to live with every bad decision that I make today. But I am also the sole receiver of a blessing or a reward for a good decision. Sometimes you can't always poll the audience, you just have to answer the question yourself.

To some this may be another crazy posting from that weird girl in Maryland, to the other's who read this you may know what I'm talking about., even agree to a point.

To me (and my shoes) It's the truth

It's raining

I haven't written much about my job because there isn't much to say. However, I now have A LOT to say. I've been having suspicion since my 3rd week here that I jumped onto a sinking ship. A sinking...financial ship. My second time getting paid I had to hold my check until Monday. That was my first clue. Then the more I got my feet wet I realized that the company had only built two houses and one was the owners. So we have 3 empty townhouses, and 14 more we need to start building and no money to do so. Shawn and I had started talking about 2 weeks ago about me putting feelers out there for a job, just in case. Well Friday morning my boss tells me he wants me to go to like 15 hours a week. It could possibly be a temp thing but he's not sure. I thought it over, over the weekend and decided that I couldn't really do 15 hours a week, so I told him today and now I have the wonderful task of having to look for a new job! It's so ironic because part of the reason I left my previous job is because I sensed they were going under as well and when I told the girl I was replacing here why I was leaving she was like "Oh you don't have to worry about that, we are definitely growing!" I've never heard of reverse growth. The only upside is that until I find something new I get to be part time, and the new job I get I will take 2 weeks off before starting so Shawn and I can go on vacation. And to add insult to injury, I had to hold my check again

It's about time

Finally someone with some sense

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