Pictures of furniture

Chair from Ethan Allen: Now I do have to say that this picture makes the chair look likes it pleather and really ugly! But we are getting it upholstered in a zebra print (predominately black print). I couldn't find that online. When the chair comes in I'll get a picture. Oh and we're getting the ottoman too which has a storage compartment in it.





Living room set: (Just a picture of sofa)



Our new bed from Pottery Barn: Not sure what color, debating between white or black (of course)

Let my words be few

This song used to one of my favorite worship songs and it just popped in my head today and I've been singing it all day....

You are God in heaven
And here am I on earth
So I'll let my words be few
Jesus, I am so in love with You

Chorus:
And I'll stand in awe of You, Jesus
Yes, I'll stand in awe of You
And I'll let my words be few
Jesus, I am so in love with You

The simplest of all love songs
I want to bring to You
So I'll let my words be few
Jesus, I am so in love with You

*Phillips, Craig, and Dean

The chorus always got me. I am always in awe of what God does in my life and in the lives of others around me. I may be 900 miles away from where I should be, I'll admit that. But when it comes to God's power and is infinite love for his child I can't help but smile. There really isn't anything else to say other then "I'm in awe of you God"

Furniture Shopping

We are now finally at the 2 month mark of the big moving day. I know Shawn's excited and we just told little Shawn (aka The Kid) last night and he was like "So when the clock says 2, we move to the city?" But I am extremely excited! Like totally bursting at the seems! I'm so ready to get out of Baltimore. We have had 209 murders this year, that is up 30 since last year. So I've started furniture shopping. I asked Shawn if we moved if we could get all new stuff. I'm huge, huge black and white fan. (remember the wedding colors) So I decided to do the apartment in black and white with silver and red accents. We started furniture shopping a few weeks ago. I found this really great couch at Ikea of all places. I didn't really expect to find a living room set I liked but we found this great white leather set! I really wanted white furniture but was hesitant to get white because of the stain factor, so I thought of going with a black and white print. But when we went to Ikea the other weekend we saw the one we really liked. Then Saturday we went to Ethan Allen and found this great sleeper sofa/chair. Its a bit bigger then a regular chair, it's a little smaller then a loveseat. We got that in a black and white zebra print! I totally, totally love it!! It takes 12 weeks to come in :-( So I won't get to see it for awhile.

In preparation of the move of been going through some of my things trying to declutter. The one drawback of New York apartments is that they are small of course. So I cleaned my closet out Thursday and had hoards, and hoards of clothes that I didn't want anymore. I was just going to take them to the thrift store but saw a commercial Friday about this place called Plato's Closet that buys your stuff. So we pack the car up and drive over there. I had 2 rubbermaid containers filled with stuff and they took 4 things!!!!!!! They were like "Sorry but because of the condition your stuff is in" I was like "The condition! You've got to be kidding me!" My stuff is in great, great condition. I even had Gucci bag in there and they didn't want it. It was the weirdest thing! So we just took the stuff to the Salvation. Now I have like a 100 books that I need to get rid of. Anyone want to buy them??????

We can't start apartment hunting yet because its too soon. I've called a couple agencies and they told us to get back to them the beginning of next month. One place I found 3 of my favorites and I have my fingers crossed that they are still there next month.

Giving your baby away

1 Kings 3:16-27

16 Now two prostitutes came to the king and stood before him. 17 One of them said, "My lord, this woman and I live in the same house. I had a baby while she was there with me. 18 The third day after my child was born, this woman also had a baby. We were alone; there was no one in the house but the two of us.

19 "During the night this woman's son died because she lay on him. 20 So she got up in the middle of the night and took my son from my side while I your servant was asleep. She put him by her breast and put her dead son by my breast. 21 The next morning, I got up to nurse my son—and he was dead! But when I looked at him closely in the morning light, I saw that it wasn't the son I had borne."

22 The other woman said, "No! The living one is my son; the dead one is yours."
But the first one insisted, "No! The dead one is yours; the living one is mine." And so they argued before the king.

23 The king said, "This one says, 'My son is alive and your son is dead,' while that one says, 'No! Your son is dead and mine is alive.' "

24 Then the king said, "Bring me a sword." So they brought a sword for the king. 25 He then gave an order: "Cut the living child in two and give half to one and half to the other."

26 The woman whose son was alive was filled with compassion for her son and said to the king, "Please, my lord, give her the living baby! Don't kill him!"
But the other said, "Neither I nor you shall have him. Cut him in two!"

27 Then the king gave his ruling: "Give the living baby to the first woman. Do not kill him; she is his mother."

Pictures

He's not a giant

Hmmm....I should probably add that the kids in the picture with Shawn are not his classmates, they are his busmates. The girls are in Pre K. I looked back at the picture and I was like "Uh, Shawn is a giant!" He is pretty tall for his age almost as tall as me which I should mention is no great feat.

2nd 1st Day

Today was Shawn's second, first day of school. It's weird how they set it up. Thursday night was orientation, which actually should have been named "Just come see the classroom" and then Monday was orientation and half day of school. The kids didn't do anything put color a coloring sheet and then we all went home. Tuesday he was off and then today (Wednesday) was the first day he got to ride the bus it was still half day today and tomorrow and then Friday is full day. But he says he had a lot of fun and he sat down and talked to his "brothers" for some reason I think he thought the other kids were family of some sort. He says he doesn't want to go back until "Maybe Saturday".

send checks to cover our BGE bill please

I saw this today on a message board that I frequent

Ted Haggard's Funny Money
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from: Bonnie Goldstein

Posted Monday, Aug. 27, 2007, at 2:55 PM ET

Hot Document readers will remember the public apology rendered by the Rev. Ted Haggard, founder and pastor of Colorado Springs' New Life Church, after a sex scandal forced him to resign from the church and as president of the National Association of Evangelicals. (Haggard got caught having a sexual relationship with, and buying methamphetamines from, a male prostitute.) Later, after secular counseling, Pastor Ted wrote some of his former parishioners a "personal and private e-mail" (promptly leaked to KRDO, an ABC affiliate in Colorado Springs) to explain that he was no longer gay and that he planned to become a psychologist. Now Haggard's rehabilitation is raising some new, very bizarre questions.

Four months ago the Haggard family moved to Arizona, and last week, Haggard informed KRDO of his newest life decision: to minister to "the homeless, those coming out of prison, recovering alcoholics, drug addicts, prostitutes, and other broken people" at the Phoenix Dream Center halfway house, where the Haggard family will also live. Haggard and his wife, Gayle, now members of Phoenix First Assembly (the "church with a heart"), are also enrolled as full-time students at the University of Phoenix. Minus his $138,000 salary, and with the depressed real estate market preventing the sale of his $700,000 house, Haggard will have trouble making ends meet. So, Haggard asked KRDO reporter Tak Landrock (see below) to help him line up "people who can give a one-time gift or make a commitment to help support us monthly for two years."

Here comes the weird part.

Haggard wrote Landrock that supporters can mail checks directly to the Haggard family at their Scottsdale, Ariz., address, but that if contributors wish to make their donations tax deductible, as they very likely will, they can make out their checks to something called Families With a Mission and write on the check that it is designated for the Haggard family. Ninety percent of these funds will then be forwarded to Haggard, while the remaining 10 percent will cover Family With a Mission's "administrative costs."

When I read it I was a little put off by the asking people to send them money thing. I think its kind of weird for him to ask people to cover his family's living expenses...There's always this thing called a j-o-b. Then Shawn and I talked about it and here's what he said which I totally agree with

but for the grace of God it could be any one of us. We set ourselves up for failure as Christians because we spend so much time trying to deny that we are human. So that we learn to "be human" in private. We are all then "shocked" when the bubble bursts...and what could have been addressed if he was honest with himself...grows out of control.

So that would be my two pennies on all of those shenanigans

Check the pockets

UGH!!!!!!!!! I just got done doing laundry and some good clothes have ink stains all over them!!!! I learned when I used to do the laundry at home that you always have to check guys pockets. My brothers were famous for having the wackiest crap that would get everywhere! You would open the dryer and mounds of candy wrappers, gum, candy, papers, coins, and the like would come spilling out. Sometimes they would have those sticky things you throw to the wall....UGH I would hate that it would be all over my favorite shirt or skirt. So after a few ruined items I started doing my stuff separately and decided that no matter what I would always, always, check the pockets. Well today I didn't friggin' do it!!!!!!! A blue pen from Shawn's pocket exploded over my favorite Banana Republic shirt and other items. So word to all the would be laundry-ers (I know, I know, its not a word!) check the pockets.

1st Day of School

Today was Shawn's first day of school. Its weird how they set it up. Today was half day orientation with the parents, then off Tuesday, half day Wednesday and Thursday, full day Friday. Anyway orientation was today so we all got up extra early. I went in to get Shawn and he was like "One more minute" and I told him today was school and he jumped right up!!! He's such a slow person!! While Shawn and I were getting ready he was supposed to be getting himself together. Well Shawn goes in after he'd been up for like 15 minutes and he was just sitting there putting lotion on like he was in some type of smooth skin commercial. So this weekend we need to get an egg timer so he can learn to stay on track. So we get to school and as soon as we get to his classroom he wanted to usher us out. We had to explain to him like several times that we were staying with him. You could tell he wasn't happy with that at all. The funniest part was when he "outed" me as a soap watcher. All the parents were lining up to go meet the principle and learn about the after school program and Shawn was like "Bye mom, bye dad. Go watch and see if Spike can hear on All my Children" I was like "OMG! Hush!" His teacher doesn't seem very bright and I think the principal and I went to the same preschool. But Shawn seems to like it so were happy for him.

Yeah schools FINALLY here!!!

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Conditional Love

Unconditional Judgement

Inconvenient Truths

First Look

Courtesy of Mr. Perez Hilton:

Your First Look






The first official picture of Ariel in Disney’s new Broadway-bound musical adaptation of The Little Mermaid.

Sierra Boggess portrays the title character, and the show is currently having an out of town workshop run in Denver.

We are sooooo gonna be all over this shiz!

The Little Mermaid is one of our favoritest musicals.

Admit it, Part Of Your World rocks you hardcore. One of the best songs evah!
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Candyman

I'm sitting here waiting for Top Chef to start and started thinking about how much I love my guy. I don't think I've written much about him so tonight I dedicate this post to you love :-)

I'll admit I am not the easiest person to get along with. Hell I'll even dare to say that some (ok maybe a lot) of people don't like me. And on top of that most people don't understand me. But some how he does. Some how he sees past all the fog that surrounds me and loves me for me. Every morning without fail before he leaves for work he comes over and ask me what I dreamed about because he knows how I love to tell my dreams, he kisses me on the forehead and he heads off. He watches every lame rerun of Friends and King of Queens. He is much, much, older then me. Not quite old enough to be my dad....but maybe my uncle, but he never makes me feel that way. I could tell him the same story 50 million times (and I have TRUST me) over and over again. Sometimes more then once a day and he smiles and acts just right at the punch line. Never stopping me because he's heard it. I'm a bit stubborn and controlling. A little bossy and domineering. I have trouble with saying "I'm sorry". I'll admit. But all though I'm sure it sometimes (ok more then sometimes) pushes his buttons he gives me chances to work on it and get better. He held my hand when I was very scared. He held my hand when I fell apart. He's helping to put me back together one mangled piece at a time. He rubs my hair. He nuzzles with me while we fall asleep. He's seen me at my absolute best and he's seen me at my lowest, I mean lowest point.


There is sooooo much more I could sit here and say, but I run the risk of sounding sappy and way too girlish. All I know is that I've never questioned his love. Not once. It's not what he does for me or what he says. Its simply the essence of him and how he loves me that pushes me into that wonderful cloud of love every day. We have our up's, we have our downs, we have our down downs, and then we have our UP UP'S and I could never imagine spending my life without him. It's not easy to love me, not by a long shot. But somehow he makes it seem effortless.

He's as sweet as candy

Big gay love

One of my new show obsessions (The other is Weeds) is Big Love on HBO. It's about this family who lives in Salt Lake City and practices polygamy. The husband Bill has 3 wives, Barb, Nicki, and Margie. And there are a total of 6 kids (and one on the way). It basically shows every week the different struggles that this family faces. One of their biggest struggles is keeping their beliefs secret. Since watching this show it has made me think. If people are fighting to get same-sex marriages legalized why can't polygamy be legal? Trust me I don't agree with either. I believe that marriage should only be between one man and one woman. However, if homosexuals are going to fight so hard for their "rights" shouldn't polygamist be allowed to do the same thing? Where's the difference? They are both sins, so what gives one more rights?

I'm sure that I have stepped on some peoples toes with this post, but be that as it may. The beauty of America is freedom of speech and thought

Weird thing #36

Because I enjoyed my whole "I'm weird post" and I'm super bored I decide that I would blog about another weird thing about me. Maybe I'll add a new thing once a week. Admit it, you know you'll love it, Because like a car crash you just can't look away...Wait did I just compare myself to a car crash? Wow. I'm in need of serious help

1. I'm always hot and when I'm not I won't turn the AC off

I'm always hot. No matter what time of day, where I'm at, time of year. I'm always hot! I hate being out doors because, I know I'll be hot. But then there are those rare occasions where I'll be freezing cold and I refuse to turn the AC off. Like Friday before leaving for NY Shawn wanted to turn the AC off. Well I wouldn't let him for 2 reasons. a. It took the maintenance man at least 10 times over a month to finally fix it so it wasn't 80 degrees inside the apartment and b. if when we got home Sunday it was hot outside it would be a sauna inside and I wouldn't be able to function let alone breathe! Well that was a BIG mistake. When we get home Sunday it was bout 70 degrees outside and like 50 in our apartment! It's been freezing ever since and I just won't turn it off. I turn it off for like 10 minutes to knock the chill off and then cut it back on. Maybe I'm having hot flashes

:3-D (a smiley with bags under their eyes)

Love

True love is the right person at the wrong time....

When love can flourish against staggering odds....

So I think I can sing

I'm in love with recording!!! Shawn just gone done recording me singing and I sound wickedly awesome!!!!!!!!! He's doing all the "producer" stuff to it and then I'm going to email it out and set up a music myspace page. I've been singing since I was about 10 or so and people have always told me that I had a good voice. I've done weddings, and graduations, play, specials at church, etc. But I've never really believe I could sing until just now. I hate to sound pompous, but I'm amazing! Ok a little confidence over aboard huh? Shawn's going to mix and do his thing and the I'm going to post....

one last thing...I'm flippin' awesome!!!!!!

1, 2, 3, 9. 24, 99

Little Shawn starts kindergarten in one week so for the past few month I've been going over letters and numbers with him. His letters he has down smooth, but the numbers were a different story. For the past few weeks I've been having him write them. Some days he would get them instantly and as soon as I told him how great they were he would go and do more and screw them up. Shawn and I started getting frustrated because we knew he knew how to do it because we had seen him do it numerous times, but he was being lazy. So we tried different things to break it, no TV, going to bed early, time-outs, toys gone, etc. But nothing seemed to work. Last Saturday we all went shopping and bought him a GameBoy. Monday morning comes around and I say to him "Shawn lets do your numbers" and every set he brought out was PERFECT PERFECT PERFECT. All day he did them and all day and for most of the week they were right. However, one of the days he wasn't doing so well so I told him I was going to throw the GameBoy away and you know what he said to me? "That's okay mom (he calls me "mom") I can't beat it anyway so you can throw it away" I looked at him and tried my hardest not to laugh. I ended up taking it away for the rest of the day and he got his numbers right. I just wanted to share our triump. I am so glad that we finally got the number thing down. Now we just have to get him to not take 30 minute showers!

But I love me.

If you read my blog earlier today you may have noticed that I changed the title from "Learning to balance" to "One of my Issues". I was sitting here thinking about all the weird things about me and decided to make a list.

I have a major phobia of escalators
I sometimes walk around closing doors, cabinets, & drawers that don't need to be open
I talk to myself
I LOVE white out
I talk a lot
I love to write my name with sharpies
I could drink two gallons of orange juice all by myself
I'm SUPER controlling
I pout
I follow to closely behind cars
I think that "400 miles a gallon" means I can drive 400 miles on one tank of gas
I bite my cuticles
I turn the TV off whenever a trailer for a scary movie comes on
I have to sleep with the closet door shut
I'm sorta afraid of the dark
I hate instant message and talking on the phone
I still call "dibs" for the TV
I hate math
I love President Bush
I fall down a lot
I'm a creature of habit
My closet is color coordinated
I can't put my clothes away if they are inside out
I like to peel glue off my hands
I like to take cold showers (even in the winter)
I hate the smell of soap
I throw pennies away
I'm afraid of mustard, rats, sharks,& bats
I'm easily amused
I think I have mild OCD
I hate odd numbers
I line things up in pairs
I straighten things up while in line at a checkout
I always think my hands smell weird so I am constantly lotioning and washing them
The smell of soap make me want to vomit

And those are just a few things. I think I've always been weird and as I get older its confirmed over and over. I love these weird things about me. Its what makes me, me. I know I'm almost 20 and about to be married and I am VERY VERY excited about The Little Mermaid on Broadway...but so what! The little things make me happy and the little things freak me out (like having to talk to people) I've dated guys in the past who don't appreciate my love for sharpies or my detest for pennies. That's one of the reason I love Shawn. He sees past this crazy crap that is me. He answers me when I talk to him at night and he doesn't get mad when I get us lost ALL the time.

So maybe I am weird, random, unique, immature, crazy, to young to get married, naive, silly, girlish, childish and all those other things that could be said about me, but I love me enough so you (whoever "you" may be) don't have to.

One of my Issues

This weekend Shawn had to go to NY to pick up some equipment. He originally was going to go by himself but at the last minute one of his managers invited the 3 of us to stay with them for the weekend and hang out. At first I was pretty excited to get away for a weekend. We got to the city on Friday and had to go over to the now closed Sony Studios to pick up equipment and help his manager move stuff and pack it up to take to his house and store for the new studio. After all of the packing we had a 2-hour trip to Pomona, NY. According to everyone the trip only takes 20 minutes or so, but his manager was driving a big box truck with the equipment and had to take a residential route. Like I said I was pretty excited for the weekend, but on our hour long trek Upstate I got really nervous. You see over the last 3 years or so I have developed this huge fear of meeting new people. I have no idea how it happened, but it was like one day I woke up and was ridiculously shy.

When I was younger I was around 9 or 10 I used to hate having to talk to adults. My mom would ask me to call Mrs. So and So about the church play or whatever and I would have to go to my room and practice what I would say. Sometimes I even cried (in the privacy of my own room of course) or bribed my little sister Abby to do it. Then I turned 11 and my dad started letting me work with him. Over the next year or so I got more responsibility at his company and even had my own clients. Because of being 12 and looking like I was in my 20's (thanks boobs) I knew I couldn't meet with clients or call them on the phone and act like a 12 year old. So some how I got over my fear and was able to talk to adults, banks, mortgage companies, lawyers, or whomever I needed to, to get my job done. From the age of 12 until I was about 17 I was extremely outgoing. I loved talking to people, I loved meeting new people. One of my old friends and I would go to the mall or whatever and chat up random people, invite to church or whatever. I was a major people person.

So fast-forward to the present. Now when I know I am going to be in situations where I have to meet new people and conversate I get so nervous I almost want to cry! Saturday night we had a little BBQ at his manager’s house. Shawn's partner and his girlfriend, and one of his other managers and his wife were all supposed to be there. That made me feel a little more comfortable because there would be so many people I wouldn't have to worry about talking much. But they didn't show! It ended up just being the 3 of us (me, Shawn, and little Shawn) and his manager and his wife, and the couple from next door and their little boy. When I found out I made Shawn promise he wouldn't leave me by myself. He stayed with me for a good little bit and then disappeared. Towards the end of the evening I started feeling a little more comfortable.

Later that night Shawn and I started talking about me new "shyness". The conclusion we came up with is age. He said when he was younger he used to be how I am now, but as he got older he got more comfortable and now is a total people person. I sometimes joke that I'm anti-socially and simply don't like people. But that’s not entirely true. Some people do annoy the hell out of me, but for most of the time I tolerate people just fine. I really do long for the days where the prospect of meeting new people didn't make me want to run and hide. I really hope that as I get older this "phase" phases its self out and I can find a healthy balance.

I may not have overcome my fear of people this weekend, but here is what I did gain....

1. We got a new MAC. This is the biggest thing because my laptop was on its last leg!

2. Shawn got new equipment. Good for him, sad for me, because now I loose my nightly TV partner...But like Shawn always says, "Momma needs shoes"

And the best thing that came out of a weekend in NY was....

3. I confirmed that The Little Mermaid really is coming to Broadway!!!!!!! I am the biggest, biggest Mermaid fan ever!!! We were driving through Harlem trying to get to Pomona, NY and I turned to my right and I see this huge sticker advertising it on the side of the bus! I couldn't have been happier!

Poor little Lamb

I'm not a big animal person. Don't get me wrong some animals are cute, and I am hoping for a puppy soon, but I'm not like all into animals in stuff, but this story made me want to cry....

http://perezhilton.com/?p=3006

A change of states

An opportunity has presented it's self for Shawn and I to move to New York. And we think we're going to take it. A few weeks ago Sony Studios closed and Shawn's managers have been working with some people to open a new studio in Manhattan. His managers want Shawn and his partner to be apart of the whole thing and have offered them positions at the new studio. So about a week ago we talked about it and decided that we would move back to NY in November of 08. But something clicked early this week where we were like "Why not go now?" Our lease is up on our apartment in November, we had already started looking at our other options here and we found one we LOVE a 3 bedroom apartment style home (that's what the website calls them, I guess because they have garages and look like houses) Anyhow, we were planning on moving there in November and then when our lease was up there we were going to move to New York. But for some reason now it just seems like it would work if we go now. Shawn has contacted his managers (3 in all) and some studios and they are in talks now to iron details out. One of his managers wife is an executive at Google, so her and her husband (Shawn's manager) are going to help me find a job up there. We already started looking at apartments there, and I was shocked to see not how expensive they are but how SMALL! But that's the price to live there I guess. As of now nothing is completely set in stone and as long as things continue to go the way they are I'll get to be a New Yorker!

The best thing

This happens to be one of the best things I've ever seen.....

http://perezhilton.com/?p=2147

I may be young....But my body is 65

At some point in my 19 years my body started falling apart. First it was my knee. When I was in like 2nd grade this kid knocked my down on the gym floor and ever since then I would have pain on and off in my right knee. Well with in the last 2 months the pain is constant! I can't even get up without steadying myself on something and grimacing in pain! It's awful! I even called my GRANDMOTHER to ask her for her knee Doctors name. Then starting Saturday afternoon I went to lay down on my left side and when I got up my neck stayed hanging to the left. The only good thing is the pain in my knee literally stopped all weekend. I swear! Well I woke up this morning and my neck felt better but guess what!? The pain in my knee is back! Right now I'm sitting on the floor with my legs curled up and I the pain in my knee is so excruciating! I wan't to stretch it out but I'm scared for what's going to happen!

I don't now if I mentioned but I'm not working anymore. Like 2 weeks ago I went into work and 5 minutes after I got there my boss pulled me in and said that money is so tight he can't even finish paying me for today. UGH! I was so pissed! I couldn't believe it! I'm not looking for anything right now. I'm going to wait until little Shawn is back in school. So me and him are just hanging out for the summer and wathcing Soap Opera's.

Ok....Im done now. Im going to go try and and un-curl my knee...Wish me luck!

1 Corinthians 13

1 If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didn’t love others, I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God’s secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing. 3 If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it;[a] but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing.
4 Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5 or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 6 It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.
8 Prophecy and speaking in unknown languages[b] and special knowledge will become useless. But love will last forever! 9 Now our knowledge is partial and incomplete, and even the gift of prophecy reveals only part of the whole picture! 10 But when full understanding comes, these partial things will become useless.
11 When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. 12 Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity.[c] All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.
13 Three things will last forever—faith, hope, and love—and the greatest of these is love.

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Engagement Pictures Are Here

Finally I took time to post my engagement pictures to MySpace. I'm really happy with the way they turned out. Shawn and I were extra nervous because I don't consider myself very photogenic and Shawn doesn't like his smile. We had so much fun that day though because our wonderful photographer Ashley and I kept having to tell Shawn jokes or I had to tickle him to get him to smile, but at the end of the day we ended up with a lot of great shots!

Click the link to my profile on Myspace to see them....in the meantime I'll post a few of my favorites.
http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=28560664&albumId=776750

Drive Responsibly

When I was younger I had friends that I thought were best friends, or even close friends that betrayed me at every turn. After I came out of those situations I promised myself that I would never allow myself to be placed in there again. Because of that I have built up a wall and don't allow a lot of people to get close to me for a very long time. After that situation all I had was my family to trust. But what do you do when the ones closest to you break that trust that you have given them? How do you come back from that? How do you not end up feeling hurt and betrayed? When someone that close breaks that trust, to preserve the relationship are you supposed to just forget? I won't say forgive, because I believe in forgiveness, and everyone should be able to forgive and get forgiveness, but how do you get back to where you were?

Who decides what's best for you? When your younger obviously your parents do. But when do you start knowing for yourself? And more importantly when are you able to decided you know best?

When you see a bridge that is clearly burning you quickly try to put the fire out, once it's apparent that the fire is going to continue to burn do you just walk away, or do you continue to dowse it with water in hopes that you'll be able to preserve even a small portion?

And just because someone says they love you and that their motives are out of love, does that mean they know best?

As a young child your constantly taught to take responsibilities of your actions. Does it sometimes feel that others won't let you as an adult take responsibility for your happiness? It's so easy for people to let go and let you take the fall for the bad, but what about taking the fall for the good?

I'm learning more and more that I have to be responsible not only for the bad things that I do, but you know what? I have to be responsible for the good as well. After all I'm the sole person that has to live with every bad decision that I make today. But I am also the sole receiver of a blessing or a reward for a good decision. Sometimes you can't always poll the audience, you just have to answer the question yourself.

To some this may be another crazy posting from that weird girl in Maryland, to the other's who read this you may know what I'm talking about., even agree to a point.

To me (and my shoes) It's the truth

It's raining

I haven't written much about my job because there isn't much to say. However, I now have A LOT to say. I've been having suspicion since my 3rd week here that I jumped onto a sinking ship. A sinking...financial ship. My second time getting paid I had to hold my check until Monday. That was my first clue. Then the more I got my feet wet I realized that the company had only built two houses and one was the owners. So we have 3 empty townhouses, and 14 more we need to start building and no money to do so. Shawn and I had started talking about 2 weeks ago about me putting feelers out there for a job, just in case. Well Friday morning my boss tells me he wants me to go to like 15 hours a week. It could possibly be a temp thing but he's not sure. I thought it over, over the weekend and decided that I couldn't really do 15 hours a week, so I told him today and now I have the wonderful task of having to look for a new job! It's so ironic because part of the reason I left my previous job is because I sensed they were going under as well and when I told the girl I was replacing here why I was leaving she was like "Oh you don't have to worry about that, we are definitely growing!" I've never heard of reverse growth. The only upside is that until I find something new I get to be part time, and the new job I get I will take 2 weeks off before starting so Shawn and I can go on vacation. And to add insult to injury, I had to hold my check again

It's about time

Finally someone with some sense

http://popwatch.ew.com/popwatch/2007/06/beyonce-e-was-a.html

A round crescent?

I saw an advertisement this week for new Pillsbury dough crescent rolls. Now they are in a new shape....ROUND. Uh forgive me, but I know sometimes I'm slow but aren't crescent rolls supposed to be in the shape of, a, CRESCENT!? I think they need a new marketing guy.

Maybe I'm wrong. I could be wrong, I usually am....but I'm feeling pretty confidente about this one.

Bookworm's new home

I'm a total bookworm. Always have been, always will be. I found this really cool site that lets you keep track of all the books you've read and want to read. It also allows you to write and review other book reviews from users. The coolest thing is its like Myspace for nerds! You can also add friends to see their reading list too. If your interested look me up and add me!!!

http://www.goodreads.com/user/show/159399

I was a baaaad kid

Early Saturday morning I was laying in my bed replaying various memories from when I was younger, and I thought of one of the times that I got in MAJOR trouble. I was never a really bad kid or teenager, although some would argue I still am I teenager, but that's not relevant now, so like I was saying, I never snuck out of my house, threw wild parties, done drugs, I've only been run in to the wall, can't pull your pants up drunk, twice in my life (which I think is pretty good), so I've never really given my parent's headaches over my behavior. But having said all that, I was a bad kid. I used to get in trouble over the dumbest stuff in the world! One time in particular I was about 12 and it was in the early stages of my dads company where he used to go out and visit clients. Well one night he had an appointment and so we all went with him (I think there was 6 or 7 of us at the time) and waited in the car while he went in and did his thing. We had been sitting in the car for nearly 2 hours and we hadn't had dinner so we were all a little crazy. My mom was upfront nursing one of the babies, the boys were fighting and me and my sister Abby were going at it. I don't exactly remember what she and I were arguing over but I ended up spraying her in the face with a water bottle. A little background on my sister Abby. I love her dearly, but she is a bit of a drama queen, whenever we would fight she would scream and cry so loud my parents thought I was trying to kill her. So back to that night....I spray her in the face with WATER and she starts screaming and crying, and mom tells me to apologize and I refuse, to make a long story short I was told to apologize or not be able to go a concert the next day...Guess what? I refused to say I was sorry and missed the concert. So you see, I wasn't necessarily a horrid kid, I was just, defiant and stubborn, but on little things. But my favorite story of all time is the time I got caught shaving my legs....

I was about 13 and my best friend at the time had invited me and Abby over to spend the night, we stopped at my house with her older sister to pick up our clothes and stuff and decided to ask my mom if I could shave my legs, my mom said yes, and that night I shaved my legs for the first time. Well after that I was hooked on my silky smooth legs and took every opportunity to shave them. I had been shaving my legs for about 3 months when I finally got "caught". In October the women in our church went on this women's retreat thing. Because I wasn't old enough to participate Abby and I went and babysat my best friends little sister. After one of the meetings that night we decided to go swimming, well I was like "Great! another opportunity to shave my legs!" so me and my best friend hopped in the tub and started shaving our legs, I was almost finish when my mom came in the bathroom and was like "What in the world are you doing!?" so in front of all my friends (who were about 3- 4 years older then me) I get busted for shaving. I was so embarrassed and ended up having to go home. I have never to this day figured out why I got in so much trouble, because I thought when my mom said yes once, she meant forever....I was wrong. Now 7 years later I am no longer friends with any of those people, I mean how could I be? I was humiliated that night, it was hard having to see them all the time and know that they thought of me as the crazy razor girl.....sigh....Nope I'm just kidding, I'm not friends with them, but for reason much bigger then a razor and some shaving gel. And I am now addicted to shaving my legs. I buy every new razor that comes out, I spend at least $50 every 2 weeks on shaving paraphernalia, and get freaked out by even the tiniest stubble on my leg. Sometimes I wish I never started in the first place.....Such a bad habit to break.....

Venue Searching...Again

Since Shawn and I decided to move the wedding back we also decided to change venues as well. Ive been watching the Style Networks marathon runs of Whose Wedding Is It Anyway? And I have totally fallen in love with the New York style loft spaces that they NY brides use. So Ive been looking around here to find something similar. So far I can’t find any type of big empty loft space, but I have found a couple places that have a very chic city vibe to it. The first place is my absolute favorite. It’s a restaurant/lounge called Ixia. It’s gorgeous! It has a blue, gold and white theme through out the restaurant. The only drawback is we may have guest upstairs in the mezzanine and downstairs which I don’t want to do. But we could have a heavy cocktail reception so we won’t need tables and people can just mingle. Shawn and I are going on Saturday for dinner to actually see the place and taste the food, which looks, and sounds AMAZING. So fingers crossed that it’s a doable option for a wedding reception.

If you want to check out pictures go to www.ixia-online.com . Click all the different options and let the picture slide show run.

E-Pics

I think I mentioned in one of my older post that we were getting engagement pictures taken. We did and they turned out really well. We had my friend Ashley take them because I haven't booked a photographer yet, and we needed them ASAP for invitations, and plus Ashley is really really really really good. We went up to Annapolis, MD (where I used to live). I stupidly didn't check to see if there was anything going on down there, and there was. Some type of boat/naval academy thing. I'm not sure what exactly it was though, but we got some great pictures.......I guess your wondering if these pictures are so great why I haven't posted them yet. That's an easy answer. I have developed a new bad habit...laziness. There's a disk sitting on my desk waiting to be loaded to the computer. I can't promise them this weekend. But maybe next week I'll post them.

I'm Baaaaack

It's been ages since I've been able to update my blog, and now I finally have a free moment. A lot of stuff has happened since the last time I wrote (April, wow no idea it was that long ago). New interesting developments with the wedding and work.

So first I'll tell you about work. I've been here now for a month and some change. I like it. I spend most of the morning at the office and then the remainder of the day I'm downtown at the townhouse. Being at the townhouse can be a little boring because I only show it about 2-3 times a week, and I don't have a computer so I can't do any work. After I make phone calls for bids and stuff I'm kinda left twiddling my thumps and flipping through a magazine. Something really scary happened at work yesterday. The part of Baltimore the house is in, is (in my opinion) not one of the safest neighborhoods. So far I have shown the house to a few crack heads and have found condoms and needles in the driveway. Yesterday on my way downtown my boss called from the office saying his cell phone was stolen literally out of his hands while he was talking on it. So I was a little bit weirded out. I get to the house do my daily tidying up and so forth and around 2:30 I heard a man screaming my name through the alley. So I jump up and I'm like "Why is Shawn here?!" and I peek out the front patio door and it's this very large man who, to put it nicely did not look like he was in the market to purchase a house. So I grabbed my cell phone called Shawn, ran downstairs and locked the front door. Shawn flips and leaves work to come over. All the while I'm sitting there freaking out. Shawn finally shows up and we go driving around the block to see if I could find him, we never did. So I left work early and left a note for my boss telling him what had happened. I mean, wouldn't you be scared if some man you had never seen before walked through an alley screaming your name?! But today I will put on a brave face, keep the front door locked, and crow bar near my feet (just in case)

Since the last time I wrote Shawn and I have decided to push our wedding back until March 29th. I started thinking about it a few weeks ago. With my new job, and music, and getting Shawn set up here I have fallen behind on a lot of wedding task. And because of the lightening speed at which our relationship has traveled we are now really just getting to know each other. So I said to myself "Why on earth are we rushing to the alter by October?" no logical reason at all is what we came up with. We both feel much better about waiting until March . Come March our numbers are a little better to. We will have been dating for 16 months, engaged for 13 months, and living in the same state for a year. Sounds better then our previous numbers, right?

We also decided to try and buy a house by November as well. When I started at my new job I fell in love with the townhouses and we were going to buy one of those, but I'm not really excited about living down in the area. Lot's of rodents, murders, adult movie theaters, and other not so nice things. Don't get me wrong though the houses are great, but the area, not soooo much.

Well that's all for now...See ya in July sometime!

p.s.

P.S. I also forget to add how BOOOOOOOOOOORING the new bachelor is. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Age Debate

I should be sleep, but I'm not obviously. I'm still up watching The Bachelor. I had to come and post on a conversation that just happened between Bevin and Amber. Bevin who is like 28 goes to Amber who is 23 and begins to express her frustration and desperation (her word) with Andy (Bachelor) she doesn't understand how he can date a 23 and a 28 year old at the same time. She said to Amber that there is no way you can be ready to settle down at 23. Why? "I've been there and I know I wasn't. You can't be mature enough" Well of course dumb ass! Of course you were 23, you have to be 23, before you can be 28. But like Amber said your not her. UGH! That whole age argument is so frustrating to me. Hearing someone in their late 20's and so on, telling me and all the other girls how "immature" I/we are for marrying young, actually makes them sound immature. "Well I couldn't do it, so you can't either Nah, Nah, Nah" From my experiences in those situations those "older" girls always say that they know. How do they know? Everyone is different, everyone experiences life in another way. Everyone takes a path that the ones before them didn't. And just because Bevin was immature at 23 and not ready to settle down, doesn't mean Amber is. What makes someone ready to settle down anyway? A lot of sexual partners? Wow! Those are great reasons! Or wait...Is it because at 23 you haven't had enough drunken nights? You haven't worked as long? Oh! It's because at 23 you haven't experienced life and you don't know yourself. Well here's what I say to that. What better thing then to experience life with your partner? By the time your 28 what possibly have you discovered in 5 years? Yeah, you'll change, your dislikes may become your likes. You may flip-flop back and forth between careers. But why can't you experience that with someone else. No matter how old you are everyday you are going to discover new things about yourself that wasn't there the night before. Do the "older" girls think they arrived by then and don't have any more "discovering" to do?

I'm not advocating 15 year old's getting married, but I'm just saying maybe its time that all of the age critics out there mind their own business. I mean if I get divorced at 25 (which I won't) how does that affect the 28 year old's? Do they lose sleep? Money? Time out of their life? And if I do get divorced at 25 (which will never happen) think of all the things I gained in those 6 years, all of those things I learned about myself and other people (my spouse). I don't believe in regrets. Regrets is just another word for experiences. So if you get married at the forbidden age of 21, 2o, 22, or 19 and you divorce or begin to realize it's not as sweet as you thought, do the mature thing and smile on what was done wrong or backwards and learn from your experiences.

Sorry for any spelling or grammer mistakes. I am waaaaaay to tired to go back and fix anything

First Day

To all my loyal readers (hahaha what is there like 5 of you?) this post about my first day on the J-O-B is going to be kinda short. I literally am so tired I'm going to fall out of my chair! So lets see first day went by pretty quickly. Consisted of basically...NOTHING. My boss is this tiny, tiny, tiny, Jewish man named Yonah. I thought I was tiny at 5', but Phew! He's little! So Yonah explains that they are rather slow now which is good (according to him) that way I can learn the job since the girl I replaced had to leave before training me. Well my "training" today consisted of my browsing computer files (per his request). The highlight (if you can call it that) was going downtown to the model and meeting with the agent (nice guy) and then hanging No Parking signs up and down the block where we are building. I can't even begin to describe the amazing pleasure, joy, and fulfillment I got from running (in heels mind you!!!) up and down the block chasing flying papers and taping things to poles. However, I count today as I pretty good success. I actually rather enjoyed learning what my future job task will be. This week seems like it will be kind of slow, but starting next week things should get exciting because that's when I start at the model.

In other news around my head...We found a church for the ceremony. I have pictures, but I can feel my ass slipping off the chair so I think that means I should turn in for the night, or at the very least settle in on my comfy bed, complete with stuffed animals and get ready for The Bachelor. :-)

Sharp as nails chicken

I have a question to ask. A very serious, (possibly) life threatening question. Can a piece of Chic-Fil-A chicken sandwich scratch the inside of your throat?? I went to the mall today to cut my hair (again) and I was trying to hurry up with lunch and I was eating really fast and felt this sharp part of the chicken like stab my throat. I didn't notice the pain until I went to Chipotle for dinner. Every time I swallow it feels like a nail is being pulled across my throat! OUCH!!!!!!!!

::waves to Dolly::
::waves to Chop::

Got the job

I posted earlier today about a new job and I just hung up with the owner and I start Monday! It's really great because I don't work any weekends unless I choose to, I'm only in the office for a few hours a week and then I go to the model house. Any houses I sell I get a percentage from the agent. Now I just have to brush up on my selling abilities. Yay for me!

Good Things

Yesterday I was offered a job for a real estate development company. I originally went an interviewed for the office manager position last week Friday. When I met with the office manager she asked what I wanted to be doing in 5 years and I told her that I within the next two years I would like to get my real estate license. Well Monday the owner called and wanted to meet with me about a sales and marketing position. Tuesday I went down to Fells Point where the Townhouses are being built. Fells Point is near the Baltimore Harbour. I met with him and he showed me around the model and explained the job to me. The job would require me to run the model home office and show it to interested buyers and get them to of course buy. After that they would then be sent to the real estate agents working with us for them to finish the sale. The hours would be somewhat flexible and no weekends. I was really excited because it would give me training in real estate. Yesterday I went and met with the agents and that's where things got sticky. The owner of the development company assured me that I would not have to work weekends. It would be a regular Monday- Friday gig. But when I met with the agents they said it would be Wednesday - Sunday 10-6! I was so upset because I really wanted the job, but weekends just aren't my thing. For one, I take a lot of short weekend trips, and two I use the weekends to do wedding stuff, and three, well I really like my weekends! I told them that it wasn't a problem at first, but when I got home and thought it over I realized how much it would suck. Later that night the owner of the development company called and offered me the job! I told him about my reservations in regards to weekends and he said he would contact the agents and work something out where I didn't have to do weekends!

This was a really good week for Shawn as well. Last week we found out that a major songwriter Sean Garrett (wrote Ushers, "Yeah", Destiny's Child "Soldier" and "Lose my Breath", Chris Brown "Run it" and a lot of other hits) heard 5 of their tracks and written to 4 of them! This was huge because all of Sean Garrett's songs are immediate singles. So we were very excited. Then this week we found out the Sean G, actually wants to fly Shawn and his partner Marshall out to either LA or Atlanta to recording sessions with the artist he wrote for. That is huge, huge news, and we are really praying that everything works out the way it should.

2 Items Down

Finally, finally ordered my dress and what a long event that was. I took my Matron of Honor (Ashley) and my mom because Ashley hadn't seen the dress yet. When we got there the head designer, Mary said that it was a waste of time for Ashley to come because my dress wasn't at the shop any more. Once you pay for the dress (which my dad did a few weeks ago) the dress is pulled from the shop and sent to Florida. Even though the sample is what I tried on, mine is couture so only a few brides are able to purchase it. Anyway, I was disappointed because I wanted Ashley to see it and I wanted to see it again to make sure I still loved it. But thankfully after she took all my measurements they searched her studio and found it because it hadn't been shipped yet. So I was able to try it on and everyone agreed it was stunning. I'm very excited because I am now able to check that off my list. I go back in June to do more fittings for the bra and all that good stuff inside. The bra is built into the dress so its custom made. And then we start designing my veil. Saturday we were unable to take engagement pictures because Shawn had to go to New York for a session. But Sunday we had our cake testing. That was cool. Mary Alice combined two cakes. One was polka dots and the other was like a scroll design with ribbons and curly wire with balls at the top. I loooove it. We just finished dinner and we sampled the cake. They sent us home with 6 flavors and we only had 5 today because when you live in a house with as many people as I do, its inevitable that someone will eat your food. So one of the boys ate the white chocolate ganache slice. We chose 3 flavors so far, Almond Amaretto, White Chocolate Raspberry, and Red Velvet.

A successful two days! 2 items checked off 130 more to go. WOO HOO!

Attire for Wedding

Bridesmaids Dress (By Dessy #1976)

Sketch of dress

Bridesmaids Color Swatch (Primrose)

There are a total of 5 flower girls.

4 will be in white with primrose accents

And Savannah (my little sister) will be in solid primrose

Groom and Groomsmen attire

*May try to find a pink ascot for Shawn

Guest List: Check!

Yesterday my mom and I finally took the time to do the guest list. We had started a rough draft in the beginning of planning and the number constantly was changing, 250, 130, 160, but we finally sat down and did it yesterday and it was at a staggering 190! I didn't even know I knew 190 people! Sunday we have our cake testing with Duff Goldman from Charm City Cakes (Ace of Cakes on the Food Network). I have been anticipating this for the last 4 months! I've got all my cake ideas pulled and my flavors picked out. Saturday my friend Ashley will be taking our engagement pictures around downtown Annapolis and then Monday I finally go for my first fitting for my dress!!!!!

In case I haven't mentioned it before, I changed my colors yet again! Ta da! I guess that comes as no surprise. The dresses will be primrose and all the flowers will be white and pale, pale pink. The reception colors will still be black and white with no accent colors.

And now I'm off to tackle the tedious task of inputting the guest names and addresses into Excel. FUN!

Little Things

You must understand that it's the little things in life where life can be found

Back From The BIG Apple

Got back from New York last night. Shawn had to go up to do some work and I went with him just for the heck of it. Once again we had a great time. When we arrived Saturday afternoon Shawn had to go over to Sony and I stayed at the hotel and took a nap. While in New York I was able to check off another thing on my "List" Hail A Cab. I hailed my first cab in NY and it wasn't as hard as I thought. I had my little paper with the address to Sony, stuck my arm out and WAM! There was the cab! Ok...Ok...So it didn't quite happen so fast. I had to walk a little bit more because my hotel was on a side street and after trying 3 different spots....WAM! It happened. Then of course the Nor' Eastern hit Sunday and I stupidly decided to wear my brand new suede flats!! I was like "Yeah, it's not going to rain that much" and slipped them on...But boy was I ever stooooopid! First step out and my whole foot went through the puddle! It was horrid! Next time no matter what the weather I am bringing rain boots, an umbrella, a poncho, and a rain hat!!! But again...A good trip. Shawn was able to get a lot done and some really really really amazing business opportunities opened for him while there as well.

5 Things I've Never Done

Since I'm so young there are millions of things I have never done in my life and this past Saturday I got to do 5 of them and I would like to share them with you. Be prepared that ever single thing on this list will extract gasps of "You've never done that?" You'll shake your head in shame and swear I'm making it up, but I'm not...Trust me..























1. I went on an Easter Egg Hunt-



I know what your thinking. "19!? And you hunted eggs?" Yes, Yes I did. I was supposed to assist the little kids at it but I got so caught up in the sheer thrill of it all that I forgot that my job was to help and not actually hunt.







2. Dyed Easter Eggs-



Again I was supposed to help, but the way that little dye changed the color of the egg was so amazing to me I couldn't stop! I even joked that I was going to open a year-round egg dying shop!







3. Roasted marshmallow's and hot dogs-



I've never been camping, don't like to camp, and more importantly don't ever want to camp so therefore I have never had the delightful pleasure of sticking food on a stick and twirling it around a sizzling fire.







4. Ride an ATV-



All the guys were saying that there was no way I was going to be able to do it, but I hopped on and rode half way around the corn field, I screamed the whole way but I did it. I finally had to hop off and let Shawn take the reigns because I thought I was going to steer us into the swamp.







and finally, the most important, the one that caused shock and amazement amongst my fellow hunters....







5. I ate a smore-



Never, in my life have I had a smore. Never! I've lived the last 19 years watching happy campers on TV toast their smores and fly away to happiness only found in melted marshmallows and chocolate. Finally I now get to be among the ones who've experienced that.







Now I can check off 5 things from my "To Do Before I Croak" list and tackle something else....Maybe I can go fishing next!

I'm only 19...But

Being a 19 year old engaged woman, girl, lady whatever, your bound to get a lot of raised eyebrows. A lot of "No offense, but...." lectures, a lot of nasty comments. I don't take it seriously at all because a lot of what is said is said out of ignorance. Ignorance because they don't know me, nor do they know Shawn. There are millions of 19-20 year old people out there who are nothing more then over grown kids with the ability to buy cigarettes and go to the club on Wednesday and Thursday night. But then there are those special few who at times can act like kids (but people of all ages act childish) but for all intent purpose are very mature. And I as well as my friend Ashley fall into the latter category. I was thinking the other day what really makes me different then the 19 year old kids that I know? Some of you who read my blog know me and know all the tragic details of Mistake 2004. But some of you don't know me at all...So here's why I think I'm different. When I was 15 I went to Bible School and I met a guy who we will call "Nathan". Nathan immediately expressed great interest in me and before I knew it (and against my better judgement) I was in a relationship with him. The next thing I know he's talking marriage plans with me and his grandfather is seeing "visions" of our future. Then one cold day in February I was handed a piece of rice glued to gold yarn and I was....engaged....at 16. It took a few months to finally wake up and realize that I was living a nightmare and that if I didn't stop this train wreck that was Nathan, I was going to be living in my parents basement with 4 kids, working at TCBY. I never loved him, I never wanted to marry, and I never even wanted to date him, but I felt bad for him. His family constantly told me how much he had changed since I had been with him and how much "promise" he had, now because of me. So what's a 16 year old girl supposed to do? She zips her lips and screams in side her head. But on the weekend of Labor Day of the same year I woke up and decided to take hold of my life. I mailed him the ring and never looked back. Since my engagement a lot of questions surround me. "Are you sure your ready?" "How do you really know you love him?" "Maybe your just caught up in the hoopla of the wedding?" "You don't really know what love is" Well I have realized, I am very confidante that I am ready to marry, I am very confidante that this is not about my Pretty, Pretty, Princess Day, and I know that I love him. I was 16, engaged, and planning a wedding, but yet I was able to separate all the hysteria and hoopla of The Day and realized I was NOT ready. And know I'm 3 years older and a lot has happen in those three years and I think, scratch that, I KNOW that if I felt the same way that I did 3 years ago, I would make a change.

I may be inexperienced in a lot of things, not well traveled, have typos in my emails, or be able to buy alcohol. However, I've been through a lot and have never been more sure of my future then I am right at this very moment.

Sex on TV.... and now its on the BIG screen

I haven't posted in ages....But this is certainly worth posting!!!

It's happening!
There had been talk recently, but now the ink is dry and the papers are signed!
Sources confirm exclusively to PerezHilton.com that Sarah Jessica Parker and everyone else involved just closed their deals this week to star in a big screen feature adaptation of Sex & The City.

And, yes, Kim Cattrall will be in it

Yay that is the best news all day! Now we just have to wait two years for them to put it into production :-D

Have a good weekend!

Mary Poppins-NO LONGER!

In the past two weeks I have barely had enough to breath, let alone blog. But now I'm sitting home on a glorious Tuesday afternoon and it's grand. There's been a lot going on with new house guest, new kids, new jobs, old jobs, and wedding plans. In one of my last post I posted about starting a nanny job for the Spring. Well I started that 3 weeks ago today, and left it Friday. At first when I went to "interview" I met with the parents and they had a typed list of job duties. They all seemed reasonable. Watch the kids, do their laundry, wash the babies laundry, and HELP fold the parents laundry. At first I was like "Hey, Sure I can do this!" In my mind I'm thinking the kids at 14 months sleep a good portion of the day and I could help them do all that stuff. Well was I ever, ever, ever, ever wrong! As sweet as the kids are, how can say this gently and with as much love as possible? They are very high maintenance. They sleep approximately 1 and a half hours a day, they get massages, they eat only freshly prepared food (salmon, mac & cheese {but with real cheese only}, boiled fruit, chicken burgers, meatballs, pasta, etc), they get changed every hour, and must have development songs, and play time every day. My hours in the beginning I thought were going to be really cool. Go in at 10-10:30, sometimes on Monday's 12:30 or 1 and leave by 6. Well I started and all that I thought I signed up for was not right. My weekly scheduled changed twice a day! I am NOT exaggerating! I would go in, in the morning with one schedule for the next day only to find it had been changed, and then by the time I left it would have changed again. Then I was working 9.5 hour days, going in at 9 AM and staying until 7. On top of that I was organizing kitchen cabinets, vacuuming, cleaning bathrooms and doing the parents laundry!!!!!! All in between watching the kids that only slept an hour, and the little boy couldn't scream to long because he would vomit! The worst part...it was ONLY $11 an hour. I'm used to making double that for less work. It was ridiculous! Every day I would come home I would basically cry to Shawn how awful it seemed. Finally last week I decided that in order for me to continue this for the next 5 months I would have to lay some ground rules. But I was going to wait to talk to them until I had been there a month which would have been April 6th. However, Friday was straw that broke the camels back. My future mother in law was coming in to town and we had made plans to meet her for an early dinner based on me getting off at 3:30. I come in to work Friday at 9 AM and the mom says that I'm staying until 4. I look at her and I'm like "I can't I made plans based off the schedule you gave me Wednesday and I can NOT break them" and she was like "Well next time you need to check the bored every day" I just nodded. But I'm thinking, "Why should I have to do that?! Don't I have a life to? I'm not at your beck and call" Then she says to me to finish her laundry before I go. But I didn't get a chance to because I had to make food for her to have for the weekend, vacuum, all while running up and down the stairs giving pacifiers. So when I go to leave she says "Maybe you can fold the laundry Monday. Try to do it right after its washed, I can try to get to it this weekend" And I'm thinking, yeah your gonna be doing it this weekend because I'm not touching it Monday. Once I get home I talked to my mom and thought it was best that I didn't wait to email her. So I did, I emailed her a long list of my complaints, and I stated in there that I did not have a problem finishing out the term, but it would be on my terms. Well guess what? Friday night I get an email wishing me best of luck because they had concerns about my competence and actual experience! Actual experience and competence? Seriously! She couldn't even change a diaper when she first had them. Either way, it didn't matter because I was secretly using the email as a way to get out. So now I'm out of it, and it's awesome! I don't have a job, I am looking, but not with vigor. There's more to write about, but right now I'm tired and want to watch Lost, so I'll write later....

Where Art Thou My Wednesday?

So here I am at the eve of "Moving Day" and I can barely contain myself! Shawn is set to leave Florida at 8 A.M. and arrive here at 10 A.M. and until then I am literally sitting around doing nothing. I actually have a lot to do because I leave Thursday for a wedding in Virginia and I still haven't packed but I just can't find the strength to do anything but constantly check his flight status and make sure dumb things like ice, wind and snow don't delay him. Some of you may not fully understand the magnitude of this move but it's huge! We have been dating for 3 months now (Such a loooooong time) and we have seen each other 6 times! Every time we have been able to be together has been absolutely beautiful but some of the things you want to do as a couple like movies, concerts, shows, dinners, etc. sometimes don't happen for us because we use every moment to just sit and drink each other in. So I am so excited that starting tomorrow at 10 we can do real couple things. Ya know? I'm already planning movies, and dinners, and surfing Ticketmaster for interesting shows. And I'm not the only one who's excited. Julianna just came in room and said "Ally I'm sooo excited! Can tomorrow hurry up and come? I can't take it!" I swear that's what she said. She's excited because she finally gets to meet little Shawn (who's her age) and she is already talking about all the things they can do together...UGH!!! Wednesday where are you? Where oh, where has my Wednesday gone? Where oh where can it be?!!!!!!!!!

Mary Poppins-Until August at least

A few post back I posted about quitting my job and coming home to work for my dad. Well that started this week Monday and without going through all the sorted details...I am no longer working for my dad :-) So this week I've just had a kick back, watch Oprah and sleep week. I wasn't stressiong too much over finding a job because Shawn will be here Wednesday. (YAY!) but yesterday afternoon my mom told me about a family in our neighborhood with a set of twins (girl and boy) who were looking for a nanny until August. So I went down and met with her today and she seems very nice and the kids are beautiful so I start on the 6th. It's perfect because they only need me until August anyway. I work from now until June off for two weeks and then the month of July. The are planning on hiring an Au pair come August, however I did say that if the Au pair didn't work out that I could continue you to do it with them September, stopping October and then starting November until they found someone else. I don't have to, but I figure after I get married with little Shawn in school and Shawn working, I may just be a tad bit bored. But then again who knows. We'll see how it goes. I love having all these options.

Wedding Update

Time for a wedding post!! The last time I posted I posted with a fall theme, but after getting my dress I have decided to do more of an art deco/old Hollywood glamour feel. That required changing the colors of course. My original vision was to do all black & white, black dresses, black table clothes and all white flowers. But after I thought about it I decided to make the girls dresses Cranberry. The dresses will be the only red used (if I can help it) but the reception will be completely black and white. The following collection of pictures are some are my favorite ideas

Wedding invitation ribbon will be darker. Invite is custom made.

The pictures up top will be ours of course ;-)

Ceremony aisle decoration. A MUST

Church Door Decorations/Reception Door Decorations

Dance floor monogram. Centerpieces, but white flowers and the marbles will be clear. Table clothes will be black

Flower Girl Dress

Flower Girl Dress

Flower Girl Dress

Bridesmaid Dresses in Cranberry

Open Letter to Britney Spears

A few months ago I wrote about Britney Spears on MySpace blog after watching her interview with Matt Laurer. In the interview that I'm sure all of you saw. Britney genuinely expressed sadness over the way the paparazzi and the rest of the world was scrutinizing her and her behavior. After wathcing it I have to admit that I felt bad for her. She really was (or did seem) like a normal person trying to make her marriage work, raise her 1.5 kids, and revive her career. But as of late Britney has seriously hit rock bottom again and this time we can't blame it on Kevin Federline. My understanding of her after she married Kevin was that she married into serious trash and he was dragging her down, but I don' t think that was the case. I remember when I was younger and sharing a room with my sister that my parents always used to get on us about how our room was always messy. My sister always blamed it on me, and I of course always blamed it on her. But after awhile my parents finally separated us and the culprit of the messy room was finally found out. I hate to admit it, but it was me. So that has got me thinking. Maybe Kevin wasn't Britney's problem. Maybe she's always been crazy, but we chose to ignore it. After the split I was elated! Finally old Britney would be back, I'll even admit I was holding out for a Justin reunion. In the beginning things looked promising, but things are starting to fall again and guess what? Kevin is nowhere around! What could possibly be the explanation of her down fall? The stress of raising two kids? But we hardly ever see her with them. The criticism of the press? But if she just stopped acting crazy they wouldn't be as extreme. The lack of love in her life? Again on her, that underwear model she was with Isaac Something had an interview in a celebrity weekly like two weeks ago saying how needy she was. So what is it? Maybe she's just plain Crazzzzzzzzzzzzzzy, like her song "Crazy, I just can't sleep..." Wait! I got it maybe she should just sleep...Sleeping solves everything.

Open letter to Britney Spears:

Dear Ms. Spears,

After evaluating you current behavior antics I have decided that the best form of treatment would be to take one Xanax and take a long nap, maybe for about a week. Hand your two little babies off to one of you 20 nannies and when you awake on February 24th, go to your nearest wig store and fix your hair. By then you should be as good as new.

Signed with love,
A concerned Ex-Fan

More Pictures

Our Story

It’s a tale as old as time, true as can be…Boy meets girl, boy falls head over heels in love, girl swoons every time she hears his name. Boy proposes marriage…And they live happily ever-after. Our story goes a little something like that but there are a few more details to be added. We live in a world that is operated by a little website called MySpace. One day in October 2006, Shawn got a little bored and decided to search MySpace’s vast memberships to find old friends. Shawn stumbled on his old private schools member list after searching page after page he found my picture. According to Shawn my picture caught his attention and he decided to email me. At first he was not certain who was. But as soon as I received his email I remembered who he was. You see Shawn and I used to go the same private school way back when. We didn’t interact much and probably never even spoke, but I knew who he was and once I told him my name and who my parents were he remembered me. We quickly became friends and talked every day on instant message for hour and hours. After a few IM exchanges and emails we decided that the next time Shawn had to go to NY he would stop in Maryland and we would hang out, but it was strictly just a friend’s thing. Wink. Wink. I knew from the very beginning that I wanted to be more then friends with him, but he made it very clear from the beginning that a relationship was not something he was interested in. We had scheduled our first weekend together for the weekend of his birthday (November 17th) that trip was cancelled because he got called to Atlanta for work. I was disappointed but he promised that we would get together. Things again progressed with our 7 hour phone “dates” and by the end of November we both knew that we had been kidding ourselves and that this was more then just a friendship, we had something and it was worth exploring. Shawn and I finally saw each other for the first time December 3, 2006 at 12:30 AM. When I first saw him I knew it was love and there was no going back no matter how hard I wanted to fight it, I couldn’t. He was the one, plain and simple. It’s been a quick and wild ride for the two of us but we know that God’s hand is on our lives and that He ordained this. Only God can reunite two people after 13 + years and make it feel like only minutes have gone by.