Progress

I am happy to report progress in the production that I am currently working on. Drum roll please....We found a venue!! Yay! Very excited!!! Its the Hunt Valley Golf Club in Phoenix, MD. Its the idyllic spot for a fall wedding. The ballroom has huge windows all across the room that over look the golf course and directly behind the courses are scores, and scores of trees and hills. It's very pretty. Now we need to just find a church. It has a tented terrace that can be used for the ceremony but there's no center aisle. I 'm thinking of using the terrace for the cocktail hour and the band so people can roam through the ballroom and terrace. We had a third venue we went and tried to look at yesterday but for starters it was like 9 hours away. Okay really only an hour but it felt like 9. And it was soo way out in the country. Cows, horses, donkeys and Best Westerns was all I saw. So we pulled up to the venue and it was Little House on the Prairie which is not the look I'm going for. But thankfully we still had the club which we all knew would be it. Friday night I realized that I only have 9 months left! On one hand when you think of it from the point of love and wanting to spend every waking moment together 9 months feels like an eternity but when you look at it from a planning aspect and then you look at the handy little checklist from The Knot and you see all of your unmarked task it really freaks you out! So needless to say I'm feeling some of the pressure, but it's all good. I'll pull it of and it'll be fabulous!

Blessing and Smiles in 2007!!!!

I was waiting

I was waiting For the day you'd come around.

I was chasing, And nothing was all I found.

From the moment you came into my life,

You showed me what's right.

I never felt like this before.

Just when I leave, I'm back for more.

Nothing else here seems to matter.

In these ever-changing days,

You're the one thing that remains.

I could stay like this forever.

What about now?

I am by your side,

Where love will find you.

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love, it never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late,

What about now?

Now that we're here,

Now that we've come this far,

Just hold on.

There is nothing to fear,

For I am right beside you.

For all my life, I am yours.

Wish

be

careful

what

you

wish

for

cause

you

just

might

get

it

all

i wished...and...i got it all

Crashed

Well I was moving at the speed of sound.
Head-spinning, couldn't find my way around, and
Didn't know that I was going down.
Yeah, yeah.

Where I've been, well it's all a blur.
What I was looking for, I'm not sure.
Too late and didn't see it coming.
Yeah, yeah.

And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away.

Somehow, I couldn't stop myself.
I just wanted to know how it felt.
Too strong, I couldn't hold on.
Yeah, yeah.
Now I'm just tryin' to make some sense
Out of how and why this happened.
Where we're heading, there's just no knowing.
Yeah, yeah.

And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,
Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away.

From your face, your eyes
Are burning to me.
You saved me, you gave me
Just what I need.
Oh, just what I need.

And then I crashed into you,
And I went up in flames.
Could've been the death of me,
But then you breathed your breath in me.
And I crashed into you,

Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away.

And then I crashed into you,
And then I crashed into you,
And then I crashed into you,
And then I crashed into you,
And I crashed into you,

Like a runaway train.
You will consume me,
But I can't walk away

Just a line or two

My life with you means everything

So I won’t give up that easily

P.S. My Christmas Gift

Oh and I forgot to mention for Christmas my amazing beyond words boyfriend got me a diamond necklace! It's soooo pretty....Yay! for shiny sparkly things and the boys who love you enough to buy em' for you....Man I'm so luck :-)

Christmas 2006

Merry (late) Christmas...or is it Happy Holidays??? Anyway...Merry, Happy, whatever you celebrate! I hope it was great for you! Mine was fabulous!! I spent Christmas in Orlando (Amen for flip-flop weather) I flew out Christmas Eve morning to meet Shawn. I was very nervous and a bit sad. For starters it was my first Christmas away from my family and the irony of it was it would be last Christmas as a Scott...The nervous part came in as I was going to FL to meet Shawn's family. In the days leading up to it I was physically sick! I was so nervous and just wanted to make sure that they liked me. But I met them and they are a great family! And I think ( I hope and pray) that they liked me. He comes from a big family like mine so that element was there and he has tons of adorable nieces and a nephew. They are the cutest and sweetest bunches of kids I've ever met (well besides the Scotts. Wink) Christmas Eve we opened gifts that way we could all sleep in Christmas day. That was the plan, but someone decided to disturb the peace and wake up at 7 AM for whatever reason I'll never know (Wink...OVOVOV) But Christmas day was spent mostly laying around in bed watching cartoons with little Shawn. And we got up and made a huge breakfast! I took two suitcases. One for shoes (Smile) and one for clothes and wore yoga pants and a tshirt the whole time! But we had a great time! It was a good start to many, many Christmases spent together....

I had pictures but they got deleted by accident when I took the memory card out. But I think I have a few random ones I'll post tonight....

Your All I Have

Train this chaos turn it into light
I've got to see you one last night
Before the lions take their share
Leave us in pieces, scattered everywhere

Just Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Just give me something to hold onto

It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cos you are all that I have
It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cos you are all that I have

You're cinematic razor sharp
A welcome arrow through the heart
Under your skin feels like home
Electric shocks on aching bones

Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Just give me something to hold onto

It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cos you are all that I have
It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear cos you are all that I have

There is a darkness deep in you
A frightening magic I cling to

Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Give me a chance to hold on
Just give me something to hold onto

It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear now you are all that I have
It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear now you are all that I have

Everything

all i know is

you've got to give me everything

nothing else cause

you know i give you all of me

i give you everything that i am

i'm handing over everything that i got

cause I wanna have a really true love

don't ever want to have to go and give you up

stay up till 4 in the morning........

Venue #1...NO!!!!!

Yesterday we had our first meeting with a venue. And when my mom and I pulled up we agreed that it was 100% out of the question because it was in a shopping center! We had heard about this place but it was still in the stages of being built and from the pictures it looked very, very, pretty. So we decided to go take a look. The coordinator said they were in a temporary building while the facilities were being built but what she failed to inform us was that not only were the "temporary" offices located in a shopping center but so was the "Mansion". So I get out the car and looked at my mom and my little sister Julianna and said. "Nope, Not happening, No way" And we all agreed. But we still went into the meeting as a courtesy. We get in there and everything this company offered including their sales reps were circa 1995. But then the lady prints out the price and my mom looks at me and is like "Well, ya know the building is going to be extended past the shopping center. You won't even see the gym or liquor store!" I couldn't believe my ears! I immediately shut down. So as were leaving my moms like "So what do you think Al?" And I'm like "Please just don't call dad yet" I knew that as soon as we gave him the price he was going to want to sign a contract. But my heart just could not do it. We drove separately and I get my car and she gets in hers and like 10 minutes later she calls and says "Daddy said no". She called and gave my dad the whole scoop and he was all excited but then he says "Well what's the catch?" and she says "It's in a shopping center" and he said "Nope, my little girl is not getting married in a shopping center, I don't care how much it cost!" So he hung up and called me and said he was not going to try and pinch pennies or anything and to not worry that I would get what I wanted no matter how much it cost. Needless to say I was pretty relieved. Thank God for good dads huh? So tomorrow we have another meeting with my number one choice....We'll see how it goes....

A & S :-) Mmmm...Love :-)

Jet Plane Ride

It's been quite a roller coaster ride...scratch that. JET PLANE ride these past few weeks. I've been wanting to blog about all of this for awhile but you know what? I'm speechless! ME! Alexandria (INSERT MIDDLE NAME) (INSERT LAST NAME) is utterly speechless. There has been so many good changes that have happened in my life. Actually I should say one change. But this one change has set the stage for many, many, future changes. What is the change? Shawn.... The most magnificent human being I've ever had the pleasure of knowing. Here's how I'll explain it. For 19 years (okay maybe not that long, but you get the picture) I have been searching for him. The one who was playing my song. The one who made me want to touch the sky. Who made me not afraid. After each false alarm my heart got more and more anxious. Certainly he's around the corner! He's coming soon...Finally there he was. Without any kind of warning there he was.....And my heart is finally at rest. I couldn't have asked for a better one. It's a connection and love that comes once in a persons life and if you aren't careful it'll pass you by....I'm not letting it pass me by. I'm taking it in. I'm drinking it up and living for the moment. It's such a surreal feeling that I have. Like "Wow...He's it!" I can see my future so clearly now. He's a good man. Unbelievably sexy (Wink, Wink...Rolling Stones T-Shirt please!!) He's talented...(Long live the Arkitects) He's funny, smart, caring, intuitive, charming, romantic, serious, passionate, creative, and he loves me with a love I've never known (parents not included. LOL). I couldn't be happier, I couldn't be luckier...Every moment with him is a moment I want to put into a box to show our grand kids. We've talked about a lot of stuff and we are making a lot of plans.......Just stay tuned and keep October 2007 open.....

It's ovovovovov forever and always :-)

The Roller Coaster

Have you ever ridden a roller coaster? I love roller coasters. I love the adrenaline I get as I'm chugging up. I love the rush I feel when I'm in the air and everything on the ground is shut out and it's just you and the sky. Like you can touch the sky....Touch the sky....

Imagine... Your at Universal Studio's all you've heard all day long is about how amazing The Hulk is...And all day long you've been preparing yourself. Finally your in line. Your laughing, your joking, your wiping sweat of your brow, because Florida is hot as hell. But as the appointed time draws closer your stomach is flipping, your legs are getting heavier. Your having doubts. But yet you press on because you know that once your done you'll be glad you pushed yourself. Your excited....The future holds such promise...

And then suddenly the decision comes. Do you ride front? If you ride front you'll see everything that's coming, some say it's scarier to see it coming. I say it's not. Then you think..."Hmm the middle..the middle has to be good. It's the middle right?" Half in, half out...not fully giving yourself. Short changing your self if you will. But you still don't have enough guts to do the middle....So you think. "Ah hah! The back! The back won't be scary at all! I won't see what's coming, And I can just sit and chill, Yup the back....much safer..." But I say that it's not. I say it's scarier to ride back. You can't see what's up ahead, you don't know where your going next, all you have is a promise, you hear the screams of the people before you, you hear the laughter, the sheer thrill of it all and it excites you. The promise...So you ride back. Your brave....your gonna do it. Then as soon as the lap bar comes slamming down your pulse starts beating faster! "Wait!" Your head screams! "I want to see what's coming first! I want to be safer! STOP! WAIT!" But it's no use...The ride has started...Your chugging....and then your falling and your screaming and your laughing. Because as scary as it is...You know it's all worth it. You took the path less traveled....Because it was all worth it....The promise of the future...

"Being scared".......Sometimes it's worth it she said

So ya heard, Aye?

Hi Everyone!! I hope y'all had a GREAT Thanksgiving....So yes....my phone has been blowing up....It's true. Abby is married and we're expecting a little baby sometime in July. Her and her new Husband Chris had been talking about it for awhile and surprised us all this week with the news. As you cam imagine we were a bit shocked, but we are all very excited!!!!!!!In the midst of Thanksgiving, Work, Relocation plans, and other things, I guess it just kind of slipped my mind :-) Blame it on old age aye?
So yup thats the news. No more. No less.

I'm going to be an Aunt!!!

Yup, Yuppers, Yeppers ;-)

If anyone still has questions just shoot me an email
pinkally47@yahoo.com

P.S. Oh yeah and to who ever "Soccerboy" is. The next time you want to leave a comment on my blog, why don't you sign it with your real name. At least when I make my comments and say what I have to say I have no shame in attaching my name to it. That's what grown-ups do :-)

My Top 15

In the spirit of the holiday I decided to compile a list of things that I'm thankful for, but beware the list is self serving and shallow.

1.Chipotle-
I discovered Chipotle this year, and it's changed my life. Amazing mexican food. I could eat it everyday of my life it wasn't almost 800 calories a pop.

2. Lost-
Discovered this in the Spring and it is by far one of the most amazing shows every created with the exception of Sex & The City....

3. Sex & The City Reruns-
Nothing in that will ever go out of style and it's insanely FABULOUS

4. Claudia the HouseKeeper-
She's awesome (even though I think she stole my P!nk Sweats) my bed is made everyday, clothes hung up, laundry done, towel fresh and neatly folded and ready for the next shower. What would we do with out her?

5. Special K-
For a whole baggie full it's only 150 calories! And it's soooo good

6.PerezHilton.com-
Perez always breaks the latest celebrity news. And he's crazy fun and has insane pictures!

7. Britney dumping K-Fed-
The best news this year! Finally someone took a cold cup of water and threw it in her face

8. Text Messaging-
Sometimes you just don't want to talk

9. Clothes that are to BIG-
Means I'm doing something right

10. MySpace-
Need I say more?

11. Victoria Secret Panties-
Never fails, but I can never leave that store without spending over $150. Everything is so cute and pink, and black, and hot. I love VS!

12. Lucky, In Style, Vogue, W, Harpers, Cosmo, Glamour-
Never leave home without em'

13.Being able to watch ABC tv shows for free online-
Sometimes I miss my shows, but I never panic because ABC shows them on their website for free. Kills a good 45 minutes at work

14. Brithday Cake Remix-
Nothing better in the world

15. For finally finding suede thigh high boots with 4 1/2 inch heels-
Mmmm....goooood. So sexy :-)

So there it is the top 15 things I'm thankful for this year!!!Happy Thanksgiving!!!!!!

Swimming the waters of adventure

Sitting here on Sunday night waiting for Desperate Housewives to start, pondering life. As recently as this week I have decided to do the most adventurous thing I've ever done. At this point and time I can't speak on all the details, because like I've said previously, I am a jinx, and this (TRUST ME) is not something I want to jinx. However, I can say this. I want to live my life plunging into the unknown. Skinny dipping in mystery. Adventure, Fate, Unknown, Kismet, Newness, Excitement, Uncharted. These have all been words that have been dancing in my mind for almost a week. I realized this week that life is to damn short to live without taking chances and having adventures! Pending right now is an adventure of a lifetime, something that even if it doesn't end up the way I would like it to, will still stand to be one of the most exciting things I think I've ever done. I know a lot of this is nothing more then a bunch of ramblings, hopefully in 11 days I'll be able to post more details, but until then these cryptic messages is all I can offer.

Sunset Heat

sunset at the beach is a

magical moment,

where two worlds join and

unexpected things occur.

a place where nights are meant for

living dreams.

full of lust-passion and drama

-escada-sunset heat

Burned Bridge

You know who you are
This is for you..
Hm, yeah Ooh, mhm

I thought I knew who you were
I see now you were a lesson to learn
And all I am to you now is a
bridge that's been burned

Now, I was the first to believe
I made you part of my musical dream
And your thanks to me, came without an apology, yeah
We wrote Loving Me 4 Me, don't Walk Away
Can't Hold Us Down, all part of our history
Don't forget Infatuation, I'm a Fighter Feeling Underappreciated

Yeah, this song is for you, to remind you
That I moved on, sang my songs
I've got no regrets

Mhm
Hope it all was worth it
Looks like I didn't need you
Still got the album out
Ha..

Christina Aguilera-F.U.S.S

Picture To Burn

State the obvious,
I didn’t get my perfect fantasy
I realized you love yourself More that you could ever love me
So go and tell your friendsThat I’m obsessive and crazy,
That’s fineI’ll tell mineYou’re gay,
And by the way,

I hate that stupid old pickup truck,You never let me drive
You’re a redneck, heartbreak
Who’s really bad at lyin'
So watch me strike a matchOn all my wasted time
As far as I’m concerned,You’re just another picture to burn.

There’s no time for tears
I’m just sitting here planning my revenge
There’s nothing stopping me
From going out with all of your best friends
And if you come around
Saying’ sorry to me My daddy’s going to show you how sorry you’ll be
‘Cause

I hate that stupid old pickup truck,You never let me drive
You’re a redneck, heartbreak
Who’s really bad at lyin'
So watch me strike a match On all my wasted time
As far as I’m concerned,You’re just another picture to burn.

And if you’re missing me
You better keep it to yourself‘
Cause coming back around here
Would be bad for your health‘
Cause

I hate that stupid old pickup truck,You never let me drive
You’re a redneck, heartbreak
Who’s really bad at lyin'
So watch me strike a matchOn all my wasted time
In case you haven’t heard,
I really, really hate that stupid old pickup truck,You never let me drive
You’re a redneck, heartbreak
Who’s really bad at lyin'
So watch me strike a match On all my wasted time
As far as I’m concerned,You’re just another picture to burn.

Burn, burn, burn, baby burn.
Just another picture to burn
Baby burn~


Taylor Swift- Picture To Burn

Nick Lachey Pictures 2

Marquee
So Into What He's Doing

I'll Take What's Left Of Him

Nick Lachey Pictures 1

Bigger Then Life Body Guard
Slighty Blurry...But Still Insanely Hot
He Was Such A Good Sport :-)
Waiting For Nick....
Signing Autographs

Looking Sexy As Ever...

A year in reflection..

Friday was my 19th birthday (Yay for me!) it was pretty nice, very low-key, but good any how. Last week as Friday began to approach I thought about how different I was from last year. Last year at this time I was a wreck physically and emotionally. I was going through an incredibly hard break up, feuding with my parents, hating my job, hating the way I was looking, and having no sense of direction. And now a year later things couldn't be better. I really think within the last year I have grown leaps and bounds! I still have a tremendous amount of growing up to do but I feel like I'm finally moving in the right direction. So here's to hopping that 19 is the best yet.

New Car

I bought my first new car yesterday! It's a brand new 2007 Scion TC! So new that when I drove it off the lot it had 2 miles on it. It's black with rims, sun roof and a moon roof, power everything, and that totally sexy new car smell.

I still have to post my Nick Lachey pictures so tonight I'll also post a picture of my new whip hahaha.

The Day After

I know everyone has been dying to get all the saucy deets on my fantastic night at the Nick Lachey concert so here they are...

So we arrive at the Warner Theater-which by the way is tremendously gorgeous-there are throngs and throngs of people. I make my way to will call pick up my "Meet & Greet" passes and head to the downstairs lobby. We were down there for about 40 minutes or so which was fine by me, but this lady behind us was complaining that they were missing the show. I'm like "Uh, Hello!? You do realize your about to meet Nick Lachey right? Shut your mouth!" About 10 minutes before the session starts bodyguards and security come out and go over instructions about staying in line and moving quickly. We are then ushered through some doors to the bottom, bottom of the theatre where we are stuffed into a little tiny room. His huger then life bodyguard comes out and starts counting heads and gives us instructions "Attention! Nick is only signing one autograph per person! No pictures with him, no pictures once you get to the table, make it quick, no personalized autographs and when your done go to your seat no waiting for friends!" You can hear a bit of panicked whispers in the room after he makes his announcement "What!? No pictures!" I ask if my friend (who does not want to meet him) could stand by the wall and take pictures and he says yes, so some other girls are like "Well can he hold my camera too?" And the body guard is like "Listen, he's with her, so when she leaves he leaves! Sorry!" So I give me cameras to my friend and give him stern instructions to snap, snap as soon as he walks in the room. Then the girl in front of me hands me her camera and tells me take a picture of her while she's up there I say okay and were ready to go! About 2 minutes later without any warning he walks in! Everyone was completely stunned! No one was screaming or crying just saying "Oh my God! There he is! Oh my God!" Lights are flashing, camera shutters are shutting! He walks in with a coffee cup in his hand, his hair is all sexy "I just got up" style and he had a bit of swagger to his walk. Undeniably sexy! So the line starts moving, before I know it I'm handed a camera and he's right there! I'm trying to snap pictures for the girl in front of me but the camera isn't working and Nick's kinda laughing at me, before I know it I'm thrown forward and there he is. "Hi." I said "Hi, How are you?" he asked. I give him my liner notes he signs them looks up shakes my hand and looks me dead in my eye. Did I mention yet how insanely sexy he is?! Then it's over! I'm ushered back through the hall I can't even wait for my friend who is being a great sport by taking pictures and getting an extra picture signed.

So the details on him.....He was just as I imagined he would be. Tall, big, sexy! He wore what he always wears. Jeans, boots, and a tight v-neck t-shirt. He looked amazing! His hands are big and soft and his eyes are green....He's just soooo sexy!

The concert was great! He started with 3 shirts on and worked his way down to one very tight black wife beater. He did almost all his songs from the new CD, he did two 98 degrees favs. Hardest Thing and I Do. He also did a Led Zepplin song and a song about falling in love again from his first CD. Then he sung a song about being a girls master and love and totally serenaded this girl in the audience. He rubbed her face, hair, hands. It was great! My only complaint was that he didn't interact with the audience much. He didn't do a lot of talking, but nonetheless it was amazing and I'll never forget it or him.......... Oh yeah and during one of the songs he was like gyrating against the mic pole. Girls (myself included) were going CRAZZZZZY!!!

I'll post the little bit of pictures I have tonight.

Do you hate me yet?! LOL

Happy Monday!

The big news of today is that I won tickets to the Nick Lachey concert and meet and greet tomorrow! I am so insanely excited I can't breathe! I never win anything so I don't normally enter into these things. But this morning the radio station announced the contest and I thought "What the hell? I'm feeling good today." So I called and the first part of the competition was to answer a trivia question. "Which of Nick's brothers was on Dancing With the Stars." "Drew!" I shouted. Then they "gave" me one of his body parts (His Abs mmmm) and at 8:50 AM when (and if) I heard my body part called I had to call back. So I'm listening and the man says "What's left of Nick Lachey? His Abs!" I was freaking out!!!!!!! So tomorrow I will be meeting one of the sexiest men in America! This day could not get any better!

Other news will include the following:

I started school last Monday. It's pretty good. My first class is a tad bit gay though. It's a strategies for online learning and then my second class is a computer class. I don't think I start my real classes until after Christmas. But so far I like it. I'm also of thinking of attending the community college and taking some classes in creative writing. I haven't full decided yet but I would start in the Spring.

Um...last time I posted I mentioned going to Virginia again. We did and we had a blast! I have pictures I just have to pick them up from Wal-mart. For my birthday (in like 11 days!) I'm going to get a digital camera so I'll be able to post random photos all the time.

I also cut my hair last weekend. It's really cute, it's about to my shoulders. I needed a change so I told my stylist to cut it all off. It was a bit sad and I was tearing up a little but I love it!

I met a boy....I met him a few weeks ago at the mall. My sister (Abby) and I were talking to this weird guy from Verizon who was like following her around and the boy came up to watch football on the Comcast TV and so we started talking to him about our uncle (Vikings) who was playing at the time. We only talked for a few minutes and I never thought anymore about it. Then last Sunday I get this myspace (LOL) message from him saying he thinks he met me once and so I sent him an email me back and we met up Monday night to see a movie. I've had a blast with him, and I've seen him every day since we met. His really cute, smart, has a job and he's closer to my age which makes my parents VERY happy seeing as how the past two boys have been way older. But I'm not gonna talk anymore about it because as soon as say something about it he'll stop calling, I think I'm jinxed! As things evolve (or don't) I'll post more details.

Look for pictures with Nick later this week.......

God Is Good!

Yesterday was a crazier then normal Thursday. Phones were ringing off the hook, people weren't showing up for their interviews, payroll needed to be done. It was insane! But shortly after my boss left things settled down and then he called and gave me another raise! This is my 5th raise in the year and a half I've been here. My last raise was in May when I became the office manager. So now I will be making over 40K! It's awesome! Plus I get cell & gas allowance! Most people I know making 40K a year are working more then one job or their two income households. For the last year I've played with the idea of moving out and trying it on my on. The money issue has stopped me, not because I didn't make enough, but because if you know me, you money & me don't get along well. :-) But now with this raise I could move out and be comfortable. At this time I'm not planning on leaving though. I have it pretty well. I have no curfew, I can come and go as I please, I don't have chores (we have a full time housekeeper), my dad pays all my bills. The only thing I'm required to do is go to church LOL. When you have it as good as I do why rock the boat right?

Abby & I are headed to VA this afternoon, totally excited! Hopefully I'll have some crazy stories to tell when I get back....

In Response:

I guess my little blog stirred up quite a response aye? We've already seen the comments left here on blogger haven't we all? Now I'd like to post some comments from the myspace blog and also a few emails I received. Personally thanking me

The first two are from my goood friend Ms. Hilary. One was a comment left on myspace.com the other was an email...

Comment:
So well written! Sort of reminds me of the "stalker" situation. Never were true friends - Ashley had to behave or respond just the way they "wanted". Now, they just can't let go!
The band was great Friday night but the best part for me was seeing Josh and Ashley surrounded with a sea of genuine friends - you, Abby, Caitlyn, Amanda, Rachel, Brooke, Katie, Andrew, Kevin, Dustin, Joel, Liz etc.. made me grateful for the faithfulness of God to bring the real thing and get rid of the fake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wish I had seen the dance! Perhaps it's on the video! Another reason for a party!

Email
I read your blog to Paul (My Pastor also Ashley's dad) this morning over the phone and he was really hit in the spirit. I told him I thought that was more of a writing as to what God is exposing - especially in the Universal church - weeding out the counterfeit and leaving the genuine. It's the only way we will RULE THE WORLD!!!!!!! :O) I think your writing is more prophetic and speaking into the bigger picture........ Just a thought - ponder with the HS and see what you think... loads of love, Hilary

*Paul is my spiritual covering. He's an awesome Pastor who prays for my family and allows us to use our gifts and callings for God. He realizes that God was the creator of all the things and that our gifts were created to share with the world. Not just to sit in a church Sunday after Sunday reciting the vision.

The other two will remain anonymous because I would hate to drag people in that aren't involved...

Email
You know it's really funny that you mention the whole, never really liked you anyway part in your blog. I mean why in the world would you even have someone in your wedding that you didn't even like. The people there are supposed to support you and be there when the times are tough and when things aren't so great. Here I am a couple hundred miles away, 10 years older than you and still I will not only talk to you, but hang with you. WTF??? Are people that fickle, that they just put people in their wedding to fill a hole, use and abuse someone's house and home only to deny a friendship years later. I mean what kind of witness is that. If I don't like someone, I ask myself why and what I can do to see them in a different light. Stuff like that really makes me wonder if they really understand what Christianity is all about. ARRGGHH all this myspace DRAMA, this is why I cancelled previously, but now I don't care and will be true to what I know and the people who are true to me. Anyway sorry for the rant, but just thought I would respond.

**Now I will admit that this one caught me a little off guard so I had to seek clarity from the author. The following is what I received back...

Haha, well I know I went off on a tangent there, but that was for you Alex, come on now. You know I have to defend you LOL.

The last and finale email I will post I received in the wee hours of the morning. I woke up around 3ish because I couldn't sleep-I'm really excited for this coming weekend-and so I checked my email and did a bit of surfing on the net. The person who sent this to me sent me two separate emails (I will only post the one) but I was moved to tears because for years I have thought this person didn't like me. But come to find out we shared the same feelings towards each other and have been denying a friendship that had the potential to be GREAT but because of other parties involved was never seen to it's fullest.

2nd Email
Hey I SWEAR I just read your blog, and ironically I just sent you another message earlier that touched on a similar topic! I think we both just had an epiphany of whom we are as people and where we stand as friends to others. I am sorry that someone could take advantage of you as a friend and be so selfish and cold to act the way that they did. I don't know who it is you wrote about, nor is it any of my business, but I just wanted to let you know that what they did is wrong, and I think it shows awesome character that you walked away with your head up high... and that you did not let someone's insecurities affect your own identity. I admire that.
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In closing please don't stop reading my blog just because you are taking on other people's offenses. NOTE: A very prophetic man of God once said "You can not offend a dead man." I urge everyone to go back and read the now famous post because no where in there did I say nasty things. Neither did I gossip or slander anyone. I spoke the truth. Maybe that's what the problem is. Regardless of what these people have done to me and have said about me (and lets face it, will continue to say) I have remained as true as possible and I also have tried to reach out to them on numerous occasions. The post was not a result of a friend request denial that would have been immature, although that was the final draw, it instead was written out of frustration that has been building for many years. I will not apologize for the things I said or think. I will continue to write what I want, when I want, and about whomever I want. After all America is still the land of the free isn't it?

If any one is still adamant on saying that I did slander & gossip I suggest you visit Dictionary.com and look the words gossip & slander up, and then once you do that subscribe to The Word A Day. It's free. And to all of those who "anonymously" read my blog. All though I am deeply flattered, next time lets be woman (or man) enough to respond on my blog. Feel free to leave any type of comment. Wisdom, encouragement, disagreement, scriptures. All is welcome and will not be deleted.

Ponder this, shall we?
Patterning your life around other's opinions is nothing more than slavery.
Lawana Blackwell, The Dowry of Miss Lydia Clark, 1999

True Friends

Friday night at Ashley & Josh's rehearsal dinner, (actually more like party. ) All of us "younger" people were up front making up silly dance moves, and Brooke came up with one called "Stab you in the back" it was kind of like the Psycho movie move. We all did it and laughed as we pretended to stab each other in the back. It was ironic (in my opinion) that we created that dance move just as we were celebrating genuine friends. In my day I've experienced a lot of stab-ige, and within the last 3 years or so friendships have begin to weed themselves out.

So myspace is taking the world over right? And sometime last week all of these new "addicts" were born and I realized "Hey, those are my friends!" So I did what any normal friend would do. I sent a friend request. Imagine my shock when I received this back "Hey, I apologize but I typically keep this site for my close friends. I hope all is well with you." So I asked the person. Was I not a close friend when I stood upfront as you took your vows? Or does knowing you for at least 10 years not classify me as a close friend either? When I went home and told Abby, she wasn't surprised. Because why? 1. This person sent her the same thing, and 2. One of this persons very close relatives told Abby a couple of weeks ago that the aforementioned "friends" wife never liked us anyway. I guess what it ends up being is that these people were in some way threatened by me, my sister, and my family. Therefore they stayed true to that old saying of "Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer" But now that we live in totally different states they still can't stop the competition because if they stop it they will have to face the truth. What is that you ask? Well simple. They lost. While the rest of are moving on with our life and experiencing life, they are still no further along then they were 4 years ago.

What are the basis of this person saying we aren't close? There aren't any. Is it the fact that we moved to a different state? Or maybe the fact that we no longer live under a dictatorship?

That's why now I am so happy for where we (me & my family) are in life. We have true friends. Friends that are genuinely happy for the strides we make in life. Friends that don't talk behind our backs. Friends who don't try to bring condemnation. Friends that don't try to force their convictions on us. I never knew the true definition of a friend until I met Ashley. I can met a guy and call her and tell her about it and she's just as thrilled (if not more) as I am. She doesn't go back to her other friends or family and say that I only want a boyfriend because she has fiance. (Yes I have had that said before). And I know with Ashley that if my family were to move to Colorado and go to another church we would still be great friends! Our friendship isn't based on location.

I guess what this has shown me is that we were never friends to begin with. We are only friends when we can provide jobs, mattresses, honeymoons, money for mission trips, clothes, shoes, purses, the use of our house for various events, or just ourselves for them to walk all over.

To Tattoo??

Were headed to VA again this weekend. And I'm really excited! Last time we had the greatest time ever! I'm debating on getting a tattoo from Mr. Ink. I was going to get one last time but changed my mind. But now I'm not so sure. I want either a small heart on my wrist and/or La Bella Vita (Italian for the beautiful life) or I want just a heart and Bella on my wrist. But I don't know. It was rather painful to watch Tony get his done last time. I don't know. I'll update you Tuesday when I get back on it.

The Wedding

So Ashley & Josh got married this weekend and it was great! We had so much fun Friday night dancing to oldies and flirting with the not so attractive waiters. I ended up buying Dress A, and returning it Saturday morning! I took it home and tried it on again Friday night and it just didn't do anything for me. So I went with a black dress that I got in April and had never worn. The day of the wedding was great. It was little cloudy but just as Ashley got to the end of the aisle the sun came peeking out. Abby, Amanda, and I sung our three songs and if I do say so myself we sounded really good LOL. The harmonies were great! But over all it was a really nice weekend. Ashley and Josh are one of the sweetest, genuine couples I know and I am so happy for them. It's also pretty cool because they are moving like 5 minutes from us.

Ashley's family from Canada came down and it was soooo fun to hang out with Brooke & Katie who are also super sweet. Brooke and I danced all night Friday and Saturday. I love those girls!

To Jump or Not To Jump?

Yesterday was the like the worst working day of my life! It all of a sudden hit me that I do EVERYTHING and when I say everything I mean EVERYTHING. Don't get me wrong my job is not hard at all. But when you give one person the responsibilities of at least 4 people it can get very stressful. One of the hat's that I wear is accounts payable. I handle both the business accounts and personal accounts. Often times my boss will want me to call a company to get information about his account and every time I explain to him that I am not authorized to get information from his credit card company, car insurance, telephone, gym membership,etc. Yet he still makes me call. So yesterday at about 9 AM he calls asking me to do three things. All three of the task were going to require me to sit on hold for about 15 minutes (in between answering the phone) One of the things was to call his car company about payment. At 9 AM I explained to him that they may not give me any information, but I would do my best. At 9:05 I hung up. At 9:15 he calls back asking if had done two of the things. "Um, no Mr. Boss man I haven't. I was actually sitting on hold when you called but because we have no receptionist I had to hang up (after holding for 6 minutes) and answer the phone." It was after I hung up with him that I put my head down and in the midst of my tears fantasized about jumping out the huge picture window in my office. He then says to me yesterday afternoon. "Pull like 100's of resumes and schedule them" 'Okay sir, will do" then he says "Oh yeah and lets send out all 2500 of these fliers." "Um okay." then this morning he asked me if I sent out the 2500 fliers. Seriously do I look like I have 6 hands? I have to print labels, stick the labels, buy stamps, and then stick the stamps. When we had a receptionist it took her a week to do 1500. Do the math!

It's 11 AM and already the forecast is gray. I feel like I have to vomit from my super nasty protein shake. I have an iron pill stuck in my throat, I've already talked to three irate customers, and it's 11 and my boss is here already!

The Choices

Dress A
Dress B
Dress C

I think I'm gonna go with dress A. I have so many black dresses and this is really different.

Dress Dilemma

This weekend Ashley and Josh are getting married!!! Yeah I'm so happy for them. They are the sweetest couple by far. They've asked Abby and I to sing and because of that I need to find a dress. I started looking like a month ago but never tried anything on and then last week I remembered that the wedding was Saturday and I had NOTHING to wear. Pressure number 1. I'll be on stage (or in the front wherever) in front of people so I can't throw on any old thing on 2. The wedding is semi-formal, and again I can't throw on anything. So I dragged my little sisters with me Saturday to 8 stores. It was so hard because originally I had wanted a dress but that brought up two issues 1. Because I'm so top heavy (yes even after the surgery) it makes finding something to fit up there harder then for most girls. Either it fits wonderfully through the body but my "girls" form a uni-boob, or it fits up top and through the body I'm wearing something for a 300 lb. Woman. 2. Dresses (and even some skirts) that are supposed to fall a little below the knee can look like an evening gown on me because I'm mega short.

So after 4 stores I knocked the dresses out and ended finding two stores with dressy looking skirt and tops. And then on a whim I stopped in another store and found a really pretty strap-less dress that I thought fit pretty well. So yesterday I took my mom back with and to my surprise neither store had the skirts so I went back to the store with the dress and tried it on for my mom and just didn't fall right. So I was back to the drawing board. Moral of the story by 7 last night I was able to put 3 dresses on hold. I'll post the pictures in a seperate posting.

My new pet peeve

Here's my new pet peeve: Tall glasses with small openings! Seriously whoever designed them has no sense at all. How are you suppossed to clean it? I drink these really thick chocalote protein shakes and was washing the dishes at work this morning and I had to clean my cup so I could drink a shake and I could not get the sponge in it to wash the damn thing! There was all this gunk on the bottom and on the sides and it I could not get it in! I finally took the sponge stuck it in the cup and then got a fork and used the fork to move the sponge around. I still couldn't get it! So I have decided that when I go to get married and register for gifts that I will bring a sponge with me and test out every cup. Granted I don't wash dishes by hand normally, but the dishwasher could always break and I wanna know that'll my glasses will be clean at the bottom, not just the top!

Virginia

Last weekend me, Abby, and Troy drove down to VA for Labor day weekend and had an insane blast! We left Friday morning during Ernesto and we booked a hotel suite and just partied all Friday night! We had originally planned on leaving Saturday AM, but some of us (namely the one who had to drive) had a little too much fun the night before and could not bare to sit in the car for 4+ hours. Saturday we went to Dezi and Jeremiah's for another shin-dig and again we had plans to leave Sunday but we just couldn't leave! We ended up not leaving until Monday night at 10:30! It was so great to hang out with everybody. It's was funny seeing how much everyone had grown up and changed, yet we've stayed the same (does that make sense). It was nice to just let my hair down and be myself and just relax. Hopefully we can get down there again soon.

I took pictures but only got one camera developed (I'm still using throw away cameras LOL) most of that camera was of the zoo (yes we went to the zoo) after I develop the other camera I'll post more pictures.

I'm Back!!

Wow! It's been awhile huh? Things have been just so crazy lately that blogging just hasn't seemed that important, but this morning I woke up with a list of things that I needed to write about it. I'll post them separately because I like seeing the long list of things I write about...

Like I said things have been really crazy with me. Starting with work. August was insane because we lost so many employees, technically we lost 3, but when it's only 6 that's a lot! We still have 8 field guys but they don't count. The the other people were in house and kept me sane. Now I'm stuck by myself with my boss and the sales guy. It's been soo stressful but we have a couple interviews this week so now I'm just hoping for one person, any person, it doesn't have to be a receptionist(which I desperately need) just someone for me to talk to!

Next we have school. I have applied to The Art Institute of Pittsburgh for fashion marketing and I got in! The only catch is I'll be doing it online. Blah! I know! I really wanted to go to Philadelphia but I just don't feel the time is right. I think I may transfer my sophomore or junior year. However, I'm very excited. I've always loved fashion, especially design but after much trial and error I've realized I don't have much talent there so this is the next best thing. I'll be doing my work at night and have to be able to devote 15 to 20 hours to it a week, it's gonna be crazy busy but worth it in the long run.

This Week: Part 2

The Most Ridiculous Things I've Heard This Week: Part 2

Round 3. 92Q Jams promoting
"The Black men's guide to cheating on your woman":
Uh hello!? I don't normally listen to this station because the DJ's are retarded and I'm just not a rap kinda gal. But I was flipping through stations and landed on them right as they were introducing the author of the aforementioned book. I ended up arriving at work and turned it off. About 10 minutes later my dad calls telling me turn the station on. Basically he ended flipping through at the same time I was and heard them. He called in and went off on them for promoting the book and said that this is one of the reasons the black community is the way it is, then he ended up calling one of the DJ's "pal" which sparked a round of laughter. After the show was over I became infuriated! Why would someone with any shred of decency promote such garbage like that? So I decided to send an email to two of the DJ's, the General manager, and the program director:

I felt compelled to email you after listening to this mornings broadcast. I don't normally listen to 92 Q Jams but stumbled across this morning right as you introduced the man with the book. I then turned it back on when my dad called to say he called in. My dad was the Pal
guy. I am utterly disgusted over the author, the book, and your willingness to promote this How to Guide. I agree wholeheartedly with what my father said. Your community, (the black community) is the way it is because of people like you and the author. By you promoting this book your letting the young men who listen to you know that itÂ’s okay to cheat. Have your cake and eat it too. We doesn't work that way pal. Does the author wonder why you can only purchase the books through his website? The reason being is because no reputable bookstore wants to sell that garbage. Instead of promoting sex and drugs (which your play list already has enough of) why not promote something that blacks need? Family and morals. And to those of you who are married with children, what is wrong with you? Suppose your child had turned on the radio just as daddy was talking about cheating on mommy. What would you have done then? It's not about entertainment. This is about real life and real people.

In closing I would just like to say that I was never a faithful listener, but because of the acts this morning, you defiantly can count me as a lost amongst your audience.

Between Baltimore City, Miss Montana aka Miss Teen USA 06, and books I almost wanted to vomit yesterday! What is the world coming to? Such a shame.

This Week: Part 1

The Most Ridiculous Things I've Heard This Week: Part 1

Round 1. Baltimore City is lowering the passing grade from 70, to 60:
Essentially these kids are still failing right? They won't be up to par with the rest of the counties in Maryland, and they still won't be able to get into universities unless universities decide to lower their standards as well. I have a better idea. Don't lower the standards. Come up with better tools so that these moronic children will want to learn. Baltimore City/Mayor O'Malley is not helping them he's just making it easier for them to get jobs at McDonald's

Round 2. Miss Montana doesn't know what integrity means:
Did you watch the Miss Teen USA pageant Tuesday night? Top 5 was, Miss Virginia, Miss North Carolina, Miss North Dakota, Miss Montana, and Miss Georgia. During the final question they all gave relatively dumb answers (Miss North Carolina laughed through most of hers) but the crown goes to Miss Montana for being the dumbest! This year they let the judges write the final questions, so Miss M. picked out her question. Her question was "What does the word integrity mean to you?" Do you know what this fool did? She gave the definition of perseverance! She said "Well the word integrity means that you don't give up no matter what obstacles you face, your driven and no one can stop you. That's what integrity means to me" Insert fake blonde smile here. No you friggin' idiot! That's wrong! What she was asked to do was give the definition of integrity in her own words and use an example to relate back to her and her experiences. But the craziest part is that she won!

Introverted No Longer Will I Be

On Friday afternoon while watching Lifetime I had an epiphany. I realized that I am way too introverted. Everything within my daily life is about me, what I want, and how I can get. I was talking to someone a couple weeks ago and was joking about how I just wasn't one of those "Let's save the world!" kind of people. And I'm not, but I realized on Friday after saying that, that I had severely limited myself in my life experiences. Growing up in church all my life I was always taught to "spread the gospel" but the only action I ever saw was outreaches were the main goal was to just shove not Jesus, but church (and specifically our church) down their throats. There was no follow through and no general caring. It was like a trade off. I'll give you food if you come to church. And now that I'm older I don't so much agree with that tactic. The truth is I've witnessed it and it doesn't work. Churches are still empty , still filled with the same stagnate people, and people still haven't heard the true unadulterated gospel. I believe that we are to walk out this Christianity in life. People will see the Jesus in us if it's really there. I've always had trouble just going up to people and saying "I Love Jesus! Come to Church!" It's always put me off a bit. I think that in this new chapter in my life I will be able to give back to the world and community in a small way and in that people will see the Jesus in me. They will see (without me having to say or do anything) that there is just something different. They'll come to me. In John 12:32 it says "But I, when I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all men to myself." One of the definitions of the word draw is To cause to come by attracting; attract: As Christians we shouldn't be forcing people to just get SAVED. We have to attract (thus draw) them to us and to our truth.

Having said all that I have decided to send in volunteer applications to the YMCA to do some work with the kids. And I also sent in a request for the hospital because a doctor friend of ours said that the maternity ward is always looking for people to come in and just hold the babies that are in ICU. I also have always been very fascinated with special needs children. Specifically autistic children, but I can't find any programs around here that would allow me to work with them. So if anyone knows of a network that needs volunteers for autistic children let me know.

World Trade Center: The Movie

If you haven't seen the WTC movie yet I recommend that you all go and see it pronto! It was the most intense movie I have seen since The Passion. I'm a rather emotional being, everything makes me cry. So at the opening scene of a CLOCK I started bawling and didn't stop until I got into the car. I felt like I was there in the elevator shaft. It's was crazy! It makes me appreciate all the brave men and women who were there that day and all of our troops in Iraq now. We get so caught up in the politics of the war and what the President is doing wrong, but we forget about what we are fighting for and who's fighting for us. The constant bashing does nothing but diminish what these people are fighting and dying for and causes us to forget 9/11. We forget about these peoples family's who everyday have to live with the constant pressure of not ever seeing their loved ones again. After seeing the movie it gives me a new appreciation for our service men and it solidifies with in me that I won't forget about 9/11.

Anyway go and see the movie, it's great.

Cryptic Love Life

I need to tell what has been gnawing at me for the past week. However, I can't give too many details away because the people or persons this is referencing may or may not read my blog. Therefore I'm going to be as cryptic as possible, while still making sense. Ready? Set? Go!

So about a week ago Person A told me that Person B told them that I may or may not like Person C and want to go out with Person C. And Person C may or may not want to go out with me. But if that happens there will be major repercussions for one or both us. The thing that's driving me nuts is that before Person A told me this I wasn't into Person C that way. But now that I know I can't have Person C and Person C possible wants me, pisses me off because I can't have Person C! It's soooo ridiculous. I mean Person C is definitely hot and sometimes seems interested in me but now no one can do anything about it. Now enter Person D. Person D and I had a little thing going for awhile. It was great, but now Person D has vanished and now I'm wondering if maybe Person B told Person D to stay away from me! Gosh as if my love life (or the lack there of) isn't already complicated enough. I don't need Person B or Person A for that matter butting into what could potentially be really good or really bad with Person C or Person D.

So you follow all that???

Corryanna

I've been on waiting list for a pair of Coach shoes for over a year and I got the call last weekend that they were being sent to my house. I got them Saturday. Aren't they pretty?? :-) Coach made the matching bag (which my mom has but won't let me use) and they only made about 40 pairs of the shoes and bag, mmm I feel so special!



*Thats the only picture I could find. This does NOT do them justice :-)

Weekend Round-Up

So sad the weekends over. It was pretty good. Friday night went to dinner and then went and saw John Tucker Must Die which was really cute and funny. It's been a long time since I've seen one those teen movies. It made me wish that I was in high school so I could extract revenge on a player. LOL. Saturday I didn't lounge around the pool like I wanted to. I ended up watching Beverly Hills 90210 and All my Children on Soapnet (Nothing else was on!), the most productive thing I did Saturday was finish my InStyle. Saturday night I went to the Baltimore Harbor for dinner which was fun, and then I went and saw Little Man which was insanely funny! And then I sat around for like...3 hours in the car listening to the radio and talking, I didn't get home until almost 5:30 Sunday morning and then I had to get up at like 8:30 for church. I was so extremely tired it's not even comprehensible! Remember in my post Friday I said that the only thing that would make this weekend even better was if **Chuckles called? Well he did! He called Saturday night while I was out with my X of all people. :-) I still answered though, it was so nice to hear from him. Maybe I shouldn't count him out just yet huh??

You like me! You really like me!

Yesterday my boss was out of the office and the rest of us were just kind of talking and one of the guys who is my bosses nephew said that all my boss does is say good things about me. He said that my boss says I'm the "Go To Girl" that no matter what he ask he's confidante it will get done. And then the sales guy came in and said that I was doing a really great job. Just the comments from those two alone was enough to make my day because I sometimes don't think I am doing that great of a job. Then my boss came in and just as he was leaving he gave me everyone's paychecks, bills, etc. then he handed my $200 in cash! Which was soooo great! He said that every time he thinks of the last OM he cringes, but then smiles when he remembers he has me now... aww it made me feel so special. Sometimes this job can very hard and stressful and I get really worried because when I went to him after the last OM left I told him that I could do this job no problem, but when problems arise I get worried because I don't want to let him down. But I must be doing something right huh?

This weekend should be fun too. I have dinner plans both tonight and tomorrow. And I plan on going to the pool as well. We have been in our house for almost two months and I still haven't used the pool yet. So tomorrow I'm going to use the better part of the morning to tan, swim and catch up on Vogue, In Style and W. Then I'm headed down to the harbor for some seafood which should be fun. The only thing that would make this weekend even better would be if Chuckles** called :-)

Lance Bass Likes Boys

Thousands of girls between the ages 16 and 24 will be crushed today to find out that one of the members of pop sensation *NSync is gay! Lance Bass is coming out. Not a surprise for all of us who read celebrity rags. But even for those of you don't read celebrity gossip you had to have had some inkling that there was just something not right with Lance. The stark white/blonde hair, the overly plucked eyebrows, we knew. At least I always knew. Lance Bass reveals in this week's people that he is in fact gay and is in a "very stable" relationship with Reichen Lehmkuhl, Amazing Race Winner. Now all we need is Gayken aka Clay Aiken to come and admit that he is gay as well. Because we all know he is.




Princess Frostylocks & The First Reich

Do I Make You Proud?

Every day is a new opportunity to learn something. A new day to make oneself prouder then the last. Today was one of those days. I work in home improvement and I know jack squat about it. When I first started at my job I was the receptionist and within a years time, I made office manager. Lucky me huh? With this new position came new requirements that I had previously shunned. Now I have no choice. In order for us to build things like decks we have to have a permit from the City. The first time my boss sent me to get one I was very nervous. First. When I took over as the OM he said he didn't want me to meet with clients at their homes because I was to pretty and he didn't want to send me into some of the neighbors we worked in. However, when I found out he wanted me to go to downtown Baltimore I was shocked! There are all kinds of weird-o's and homeless people trolling the streets. What was he thinking? My first foray into the permit offices did not go so well. They turned me down. I pushed and pushed but no one would help. I came back to the offices defeated. My second time went a little smoother. I ended up getting the permit but not without substantial flirting with the robo-cop building inspectors. My third attempt was today. I was so nervous. The inspectors ask you all kinds of measurement and building questions, and I don't ever know the answers I always have to make them up. On top of being nervous I wasn't even dressed correctly. I try not to wear heels in case I need to run really fast and I try not to dress overly nice so people don't think I have money and try to rob me, and I even try not to dress as "sexy" or "pretty" as usual so the weird men don't leer at me. But anyway... I was determined to come back to the office with a permit in hand and my integrity following close behind. I get to the permit office and within 15 minutes I am on way to Rita's for a job-well-done strawberry misto. I got my permit, I answered all the questions (correctly might I add) and I didn't have even have to compromise my integrity by flirting with dirty old men. I was so proud of myself for today's achievement.

The Hamptons

We're headed to the Hamptons! My dad announced to us yesterday that we needed another vacation. In April we took one to Florida. Which was fun, but we do Florida every year. We rent a house, lay by the pool, beach, do the Disney thing. It's fun, but I'm so over Florida. So last night my dad left it up to us to decide. A cruise or the Hamptons? Not really a hard choice there. Cruises are so blase! It's a real cheap way to say "I've been some where!" Been there, done that, don't wanna go back. So me and my sister both sang in unison "The Hamptons!". But the really cool part is not that we are going to the Hamptons but that we are going to look for some real estate. We looked in Florida in April but like I said Florida is way to touristy. Then we thought Miami, but with as many little kids as we have that would only be fun for me and Abi. Plus Florida in the summer is so brutal! Your crazy if you go any time past June. I would hate to have a summer house in FL and not be able to use it because of the extreme heat factor. So the Hamptons it is. Now I'm off to scour JCrew, Banana Republic and Polo websites for some nautical stripes, whites, and navy blue clothing for our Hamptons get away! Oh yeah and now I have reason to get the new Coach Hampton tote I've been asking Dad for. Life is sweeet

When real people fall

This morning I was on my way into the grocery store and I was having a pretty good morning and I was feeling all cute and happy so I was sorta “strutting”. Then before I knew it my right leg gives way and I’m literal seconds away from falling right on my face. At that moment I was reminded of last night’s Sex and the City. It was the episode where Carrie gets to be a model for the day. Carrie is hand picked to walk amongst the most elite models and Dolce & Gabbana personally chooses her to wear one of their outfits. In the moment of her absolute glory she falls smack dab on her face. Instead of laying there crying about what had happened she picked herself up and finished her walk. Why? “Because when real people fall, they get right back up.” So after what could have been my most embarrassing moment ever I did what my fictional idol did. I picked myself up, brushed off the dirt and continued into the Giant. Because when real people fall, they get right back up.

Loser Guys

Loser guys and the women who love them. That headline made me laugh out loud when I logged onto Yahoo! this morning. I begin to think back on my own "loser guy" experience and what it was that attracted me to him. Frankly nothing. My loser guy story is a long one and I almost ended up marrying him, but the bottom line is he was a loser. Every time I see glimpses of what my loser life would have been like with my loser husband I can't do anything but smile and send prayers up to God. I lovingly refer to that time in my life as the Dark Ages/2004. Wow! What a year! When I think about all I lost and gave up for that loser guy I want to bury myself in a pit, but then I'm reminded of all the things I did learn in that year. And I sure did learn a lot. I'm glad I was able to make it through that year, better then what it could have been. I won the battle, and the war. I came out with a scar, a faint one, but a scar nonetheless. I'll forever be known as that girl that almost screwed up her life. (Key word: ALMOST) Know what though? I'm glad I did it. So I guess the moral of the story is "loser guys" aren't so bad, as long as you wake up in time. Thanks for waking me up God!

Yup I'm Silly

I was on the phone last night talking to a friend and we were talking about the downloading of music and stuff. And I was telling him how I bought this CD on Friday the sole purpose being the cover art. Her name is Julie Roberts and the name of the CD is called Men & Mascara. I was on my beloved iTunes last week and saw an ad for the CD and I thought "Wow that's a cute name for a song. Wonder what it's about" I downloaded the song and then I saw the cover of the CD I thought it was so pretty and girly and fairytale-ish that I just had to have the whole CD. I could have just downloaded it on iTunes but because of the cover picture and her fabulous shoes I ended spending like $3 more on the actual CD! That's the downside to downloading full CD's is you can't look at the great pictures or read the Thank-You's. I have been dying to get Nick Lachey's new CD and I could download it right now on iTunes and save a few bucks. But 1. I won't get to see his super hot pictures 2. I won't be able to contribute to his record sales and the possibility of him outselling Jessica and finally number 3. I won't be able to see if he thanks Jessica for anything!

The trials of being a silly girl!

I heart iTunes

I have iTunes! I love iTunes! I've had iTunes for awhile now and just today realized how much I adore this little guy.I love the rush of downloading new music almost every day. I love how I can hear a song in the car come right in and download it all for 99 cents. I used to use those other illegal music downloading sites, but my conscience got the best of me and I decided to start paying for my music. I love that I am able to download any kind of music and create a playlist based on my moods. Case in point when Dateline did the Britney interview I got a little nostalgic and decided to go back to my roots and I downloaded over $80 worth of old school pop music. NSync, Backstreet boys, Mandy Moore, Britney, etc. And whenever I have the longing to go back to the days when life was easier and sweeter I click on my Greatest Hit's playlist and I'm Tearin' Up My Heart.

Flirting in Traffic?

I'm single, have been now for sometime. When I first reached my single status it wasn't of course as "fun" as I would have liked it to be, but now I rather enjoy it. I like the fact that I can go out and flirt with a bunch of boys, pass out numbers, wink a little. It's fun, it's a nice feeling when a bunch of guys are vying for you. On the flip side though, I do like being in a relationship. I like the stability, the support, the built in "best bud". But every once in awhile when I see the couples out and about I get a little ping of jealous, but nothing that a pair of shoes and a smoothie can't fix. The point of all this is to say that I have never been as desperate as to put a bumper sticker on my car advertising my single, lonely, desperate life. Yesterday I got an email newsletter from this website talking about online dating and Flirting in traffic. The line accompanied with the Flirting in Traffic title said Flirting in traffic: He'll never slip away again. And I thought to myself "Cool! Tips on how to exchange numbers while on the beltway!" Because I've been in that situation before flirting with the hot guy on the motorcycle only to have him speed away at the next green light or be moved up in the line of traffic on the beltway. So when I saw this article I thought it would be very useful. NOT! It was an online dating website where you build a profile print out a sticker with an ID number and the website. Basically you see a hot guy in a Jag he pulls away you check out his bumper and if he has a FIT sticker you log onto the website and put in his ID number and there you go you found yourself a man. Don't you think that's a little embarrassing? "Hi! I'm a loser! And this is the only way I can meet people!" Yeah so not for me. The good news (yes, there's always good news) is you can find out what his financial status is. If he has his sticker on his book bag or bike helmet then you might want to pass, or if the sticker is on a Minivan with Dora the Explorer playing on the TV in the backseat then put that Honda in reverse! But if your lucky enough to spot a Jag, BMW, Hummer, Porsche, Lexus etc. with one of these stickers run closer. But then again if he's that well off and still can't find someone something might be wrong there too. So I think I'll just stick to the conventional ways of meeting men.

Just another Monday

When I first started at my job I had no problem talking nicely to people and sympathizing with them and so forth. But now that I am the office manager I find myself wanting to ring some of our clients necks! Just now I got off the phone with someone who just had a bathroom done by us like three weeks ago and now her toilet is leaking. I explained that we would be more then willing to take care of it, but that right now I have my guys on a job that needs to finished by Wednesday so I wil send them out as soon as I could. She started flipping out on me and I got so pissed that I put her on speaker and went back to my IM'ing while she yapped away. It took everything in me not to freaking freak out on her. I was a little nasty though, hopefully she won't write a BBB complaint on me. But ever since I moved into this new position I can't help but to want to be nasty to these people. Every day with these customers is a new day to practice patience! Ugh!!!!!!!!

The Devil & Pirates

What a great weekend! Friday night was a lot of fun. We (me and my Central-American LOL) went to Dave & Busters for dinner and games before seeing Johnny Deep and Company, which by the way was sold out until 11:30! But yeah so we went to D&B's and played games. I beat him twice with the race cars and then I beat him twice on Skee Ball. But we had a blast, because I'm under 21 I had to leave at 11:30 which was fine because the movie was starting. If you haven't seen Pirates yet go and see it! It was soooo good. In my opinion, better then the first. Johnny Depp is one of the sexiest pirates ever! And Orlando Bloom? Devastatingly beautiful.



The Devil wears Prada, Chanel, Valentino, and Hermes, and...Should I continue? I went and saw The Devil Saturday and it was totally fabulous! The book was better, but aren't the books always. Sitting in that theater watching the clothes, shoes, bags, necklaces, prance across screen, I thought I was gonna have a seizure. Anyway it was a really good movie. The only thing that upset me in this movie was the un-supportive (but totally hot) boyfriend. Why do boys have to be such 4-year olds? However,putting the boyfriend aside it was a great movie. "A million girls would kill for this job" I definitely am among them.

"That's all...."

The Job

I've been at my current job for almost a year and half and I just decided that I actually liked my job. Before it was boring, non-challenging work, but in May the office manager was fired and I was put into the position. My first full (alone) week on the job, I caught the flu! And the same weekend I had the flu was the same weekend we moved into our new house. But I do love my job, it's not really hard, it's just looooong and stressful days. The most challenging part I think is having to deal with my sometimes Bi-polar, A.D.D ridden boss. He's a great guy, but when things are bad things are bad! This week was no exception! Back in the beginning of June he had decided to give us off the Monday before the 4th and the 4th. Well 3 days before the blessed 5 day weekend he changed his mind and only gave us Tuesday. He left the Thursday before the holiday to go to Florida while the rest of us dredge on. Thursday was the beginning of a very hellish week. I get a frantic call from Florida from my boss saying $20,000 is missing from the business checking account leaving him only $4,000. Our payroll for the day is over $3,000. Do the math. So I was instructed to hold all paychecks until I got the word from him. Thursday turned into Friday as I tried to find some way to make up the $20,000 deficit. I didn't succeed. So I handed out paychecks (as instructed) and went on my merry way. The return to the office Monday was better, we had received some more money in and we were good. My boss comes in Wednesday and raves at the great job we did and how he appreciates me and my energy (he's all about positive energy and attitudes and such). Thursday he's flipping out again because payroll is the next day and our payroll is over $20,000 a week and we don't have the money. Thursday he's flying around the office freaking out on the poor sales guy and just throwing a hissy. I think he barely covered full payroll this week, but thank God that week is over! The only probably is I'll see another of these weeks in about oh....another week. It's crazy I tell you! The stress of this job sometimes gets to me. I'll wake up at 8:30 AM Saturday to the shrills of my cell phone to find my boss on the other end trying to disarm the alarm or I'll have a constant flow of calls (or visits) from irrate customers. Then there is of course the staff to deal with. But none of them pose any kind of problem except maybe the sales guy. Sometimes I wish I could just go back to being the receptionist or something, but others I don't. But thank HOT it's the weekend!