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P.S. I also forget to add how BOOOOOOOOOOORING the new bachelor is. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Age Debate

I should be sleep, but I'm not obviously. I'm still up watching The Bachelor. I had to come and post on a conversation that just happened between Bevin and Amber. Bevin who is like 28 goes to Amber who is 23 and begins to express her frustration and desperation (her word) with Andy (Bachelor) she doesn't understand how he can date a 23 and a 28 year old at the same time. She said to Amber that there is no way you can be ready to settle down at 23. Why? "I've been there and I know I wasn't. You can't be mature enough" Well of course dumb ass! Of course you were 23, you have to be 23, before you can be 28. But like Amber said your not her. UGH! That whole age argument is so frustrating to me. Hearing someone in their late 20's and so on, telling me and all the other girls how "immature" I/we are for marrying young, actually makes them sound immature. "Well I couldn't do it, so you can't either Nah, Nah, Nah" From my experiences in those situations those "older" girls always say that they know. How do they know? Everyone is different, everyone experiences life in another way. Everyone takes a path that the ones before them didn't. And just because Bevin was immature at 23 and not ready to settle down, doesn't mean Amber is. What makes someone ready to settle down anyway? A lot of sexual partners? Wow! Those are great reasons! Or wait...Is it because at 23 you haven't had enough drunken nights? You haven't worked as long? Oh! It's because at 23 you haven't experienced life and you don't know yourself. Well here's what I say to that. What better thing then to experience life with your partner? By the time your 28 what possibly have you discovered in 5 years? Yeah, you'll change, your dislikes may become your likes. You may flip-flop back and forth between careers. But why can't you experience that with someone else. No matter how old you are everyday you are going to discover new things about yourself that wasn't there the night before. Do the "older" girls think they arrived by then and don't have any more "discovering" to do?

I'm not advocating 15 year old's getting married, but I'm just saying maybe its time that all of the age critics out there mind their own business. I mean if I get divorced at 25 (which I won't) how does that affect the 28 year old's? Do they lose sleep? Money? Time out of their life? And if I do get divorced at 25 (which will never happen) think of all the things I gained in those 6 years, all of those things I learned about myself and other people (my spouse). I don't believe in regrets. Regrets is just another word for experiences. So if you get married at the forbidden age of 21, 2o, 22, or 19 and you divorce or begin to realize it's not as sweet as you thought, do the mature thing and smile on what was done wrong or backwards and learn from your experiences.

Sorry for any spelling or grammer mistakes. I am waaaaaay to tired to go back and fix anything

First Day

To all my loyal readers (hahaha what is there like 5 of you?) this post about my first day on the J-O-B is going to be kinda short. I literally am so tired I'm going to fall out of my chair! So lets see first day went by pretty quickly. Consisted of basically...NOTHING. My boss is this tiny, tiny, tiny, Jewish man named Yonah. I thought I was tiny at 5', but Phew! He's little! So Yonah explains that they are rather slow now which is good (according to him) that way I can learn the job since the girl I replaced had to leave before training me. Well my "training" today consisted of my browsing computer files (per his request). The highlight (if you can call it that) was going downtown to the model and meeting with the agent (nice guy) and then hanging No Parking signs up and down the block where we are building. I can't even begin to describe the amazing pleasure, joy, and fulfillment I got from running (in heels mind you!!!) up and down the block chasing flying papers and taping things to poles. However, I count today as I pretty good success. I actually rather enjoyed learning what my future job task will be. This week seems like it will be kind of slow, but starting next week things should get exciting because that's when I start at the model.

In other news around my head...We found a church for the ceremony. I have pictures, but I can feel my ass slipping off the chair so I think that means I should turn in for the night, or at the very least settle in on my comfy bed, complete with stuffed animals and get ready for The Bachelor. :-)

Sharp as nails chicken

I have a question to ask. A very serious, (possibly) life threatening question. Can a piece of Chic-Fil-A chicken sandwich scratch the inside of your throat?? I went to the mall today to cut my hair (again) and I was trying to hurry up with lunch and I was eating really fast and felt this sharp part of the chicken like stab my throat. I didn't notice the pain until I went to Chipotle for dinner. Every time I swallow it feels like a nail is being pulled across my throat! OUCH!!!!!!!!

::waves to Dolly::
::waves to Chop::

Got the job

I posted earlier today about a new job and I just hung up with the owner and I start Monday! It's really great because I don't work any weekends unless I choose to, I'm only in the office for a few hours a week and then I go to the model house. Any houses I sell I get a percentage from the agent. Now I just have to brush up on my selling abilities. Yay for me!

Good Things

Yesterday I was offered a job for a real estate development company. I originally went an interviewed for the office manager position last week Friday. When I met with the office manager she asked what I wanted to be doing in 5 years and I told her that I within the next two years I would like to get my real estate license. Well Monday the owner called and wanted to meet with me about a sales and marketing position. Tuesday I went down to Fells Point where the Townhouses are being built. Fells Point is near the Baltimore Harbour. I met with him and he showed me around the model and explained the job to me. The job would require me to run the model home office and show it to interested buyers and get them to of course buy. After that they would then be sent to the real estate agents working with us for them to finish the sale. The hours would be somewhat flexible and no weekends. I was really excited because it would give me training in real estate. Yesterday I went and met with the agents and that's where things got sticky. The owner of the development company assured me that I would not have to work weekends. It would be a regular Monday- Friday gig. But when I met with the agents they said it would be Wednesday - Sunday 10-6! I was so upset because I really wanted the job, but weekends just aren't my thing. For one, I take a lot of short weekend trips, and two I use the weekends to do wedding stuff, and three, well I really like my weekends! I told them that it wasn't a problem at first, but when I got home and thought it over I realized how much it would suck. Later that night the owner of the development company called and offered me the job! I told him about my reservations in regards to weekends and he said he would contact the agents and work something out where I didn't have to do weekends!

This was a really good week for Shawn as well. Last week we found out that a major songwriter Sean Garrett (wrote Ushers, "Yeah", Destiny's Child "Soldier" and "Lose my Breath", Chris Brown "Run it" and a lot of other hits) heard 5 of their tracks and written to 4 of them! This was huge because all of Sean Garrett's songs are immediate singles. So we were very excited. Then this week we found out the Sean G, actually wants to fly Shawn and his partner Marshall out to either LA or Atlanta to recording sessions with the artist he wrote for. That is huge, huge news, and we are really praying that everything works out the way it should.

2 Items Down

Finally, finally ordered my dress and what a long event that was. I took my Matron of Honor (Ashley) and my mom because Ashley hadn't seen the dress yet. When we got there the head designer, Mary said that it was a waste of time for Ashley to come because my dress wasn't at the shop any more. Once you pay for the dress (which my dad did a few weeks ago) the dress is pulled from the shop and sent to Florida. Even though the sample is what I tried on, mine is couture so only a few brides are able to purchase it. Anyway, I was disappointed because I wanted Ashley to see it and I wanted to see it again to make sure I still loved it. But thankfully after she took all my measurements they searched her studio and found it because it hadn't been shipped yet. So I was able to try it on and everyone agreed it was stunning. I'm very excited because I am now able to check that off my list. I go back in June to do more fittings for the bra and all that good stuff inside. The bra is built into the dress so its custom made. And then we start designing my veil. Saturday we were unable to take engagement pictures because Shawn had to go to New York for a session. But Sunday we had our cake testing. That was cool. Mary Alice combined two cakes. One was polka dots and the other was like a scroll design with ribbons and curly wire with balls at the top. I loooove it. We just finished dinner and we sampled the cake. They sent us home with 6 flavors and we only had 5 today because when you live in a house with as many people as I do, its inevitable that someone will eat your food. So one of the boys ate the white chocolate ganache slice. We chose 3 flavors so far, Almond Amaretto, White Chocolate Raspberry, and Red Velvet.

A successful two days! 2 items checked off 130 more to go. WOO HOO!

Attire for Wedding

Bridesmaids Dress (By Dessy #1976)

Sketch of dress

Bridesmaids Color Swatch (Primrose)

There are a total of 5 flower girls.

4 will be in white with primrose accents

And Savannah (my little sister) will be in solid primrose

Groom and Groomsmen attire

*May try to find a pink ascot for Shawn

Guest List: Check!

Yesterday my mom and I finally took the time to do the guest list. We had started a rough draft in the beginning of planning and the number constantly was changing, 250, 130, 160, but we finally sat down and did it yesterday and it was at a staggering 190! I didn't even know I knew 190 people! Sunday we have our cake testing with Duff Goldman from Charm City Cakes (Ace of Cakes on the Food Network). I have been anticipating this for the last 4 months! I've got all my cake ideas pulled and my flavors picked out. Saturday my friend Ashley will be taking our engagement pictures around downtown Annapolis and then Monday I finally go for my first fitting for my dress!!!!!

In case I haven't mentioned it before, I changed my colors yet again! Ta da! I guess that comes as no surprise. The dresses will be primrose and all the flowers will be white and pale, pale pink. The reception colors will still be black and white with no accent colors.

And now I'm off to tackle the tedious task of inputting the guest names and addresses into Excel. FUN!

Little Things

You must understand that it's the little things in life where life can be found

Back From The BIG Apple

Got back from New York last night. Shawn had to go up to do some work and I went with him just for the heck of it. Once again we had a great time. When we arrived Saturday afternoon Shawn had to go over to Sony and I stayed at the hotel and took a nap. While in New York I was able to check off another thing on my "List" Hail A Cab. I hailed my first cab in NY and it wasn't as hard as I thought. I had my little paper with the address to Sony, stuck my arm out and WAM! There was the cab! Ok...Ok...So it didn't quite happen so fast. I had to walk a little bit more because my hotel was on a side street and after trying 3 different spots....WAM! It happened. Then of course the Nor' Eastern hit Sunday and I stupidly decided to wear my brand new suede flats!! I was like "Yeah, it's not going to rain that much" and slipped them on...But boy was I ever stooooopid! First step out and my whole foot went through the puddle! It was horrid! Next time no matter what the weather I am bringing rain boots, an umbrella, a poncho, and a rain hat!!! But again...A good trip. Shawn was able to get a lot done and some really really really amazing business opportunities opened for him while there as well.

5 Things I've Never Done

Since I'm so young there are millions of things I have never done in my life and this past Saturday I got to do 5 of them and I would like to share them with you. Be prepared that ever single thing on this list will extract gasps of "You've never done that?" You'll shake your head in shame and swear I'm making it up, but I'm not...Trust me..























1. I went on an Easter Egg Hunt-



I know what your thinking. "19!? And you hunted eggs?" Yes, Yes I did. I was supposed to assist the little kids at it but I got so caught up in the sheer thrill of it all that I forgot that my job was to help and not actually hunt.







2. Dyed Easter Eggs-



Again I was supposed to help, but the way that little dye changed the color of the egg was so amazing to me I couldn't stop! I even joked that I was going to open a year-round egg dying shop!







3. Roasted marshmallow's and hot dogs-



I've never been camping, don't like to camp, and more importantly don't ever want to camp so therefore I have never had the delightful pleasure of sticking food on a stick and twirling it around a sizzling fire.







4. Ride an ATV-



All the guys were saying that there was no way I was going to be able to do it, but I hopped on and rode half way around the corn field, I screamed the whole way but I did it. I finally had to hop off and let Shawn take the reigns because I thought I was going to steer us into the swamp.







and finally, the most important, the one that caused shock and amazement amongst my fellow hunters....







5. I ate a smore-



Never, in my life have I had a smore. Never! I've lived the last 19 years watching happy campers on TV toast their smores and fly away to happiness only found in melted marshmallows and chocolate. Finally I now get to be among the ones who've experienced that.







Now I can check off 5 things from my "To Do Before I Croak" list and tackle something else....Maybe I can go fishing next!

I'm only 19...But

Being a 19 year old engaged woman, girl, lady whatever, your bound to get a lot of raised eyebrows. A lot of "No offense, but...." lectures, a lot of nasty comments. I don't take it seriously at all because a lot of what is said is said out of ignorance. Ignorance because they don't know me, nor do they know Shawn. There are millions of 19-20 year old people out there who are nothing more then over grown kids with the ability to buy cigarettes and go to the club on Wednesday and Thursday night. But then there are those special few who at times can act like kids (but people of all ages act childish) but for all intent purpose are very mature. And I as well as my friend Ashley fall into the latter category. I was thinking the other day what really makes me different then the 19 year old kids that I know? Some of you who read my blog know me and know all the tragic details of Mistake 2004. But some of you don't know me at all...So here's why I think I'm different. When I was 15 I went to Bible School and I met a guy who we will call "Nathan". Nathan immediately expressed great interest in me and before I knew it (and against my better judgement) I was in a relationship with him. The next thing I know he's talking marriage plans with me and his grandfather is seeing "visions" of our future. Then one cold day in February I was handed a piece of rice glued to gold yarn and I was....engaged....at 16. It took a few months to finally wake up and realize that I was living a nightmare and that if I didn't stop this train wreck that was Nathan, I was going to be living in my parents basement with 4 kids, working at TCBY. I never loved him, I never wanted to marry, and I never even wanted to date him, but I felt bad for him. His family constantly told me how much he had changed since I had been with him and how much "promise" he had, now because of me. So what's a 16 year old girl supposed to do? She zips her lips and screams in side her head. But on the weekend of Labor Day of the same year I woke up and decided to take hold of my life. I mailed him the ring and never looked back. Since my engagement a lot of questions surround me. "Are you sure your ready?" "How do you really know you love him?" "Maybe your just caught up in the hoopla of the wedding?" "You don't really know what love is" Well I have realized, I am very confidante that I am ready to marry, I am very confidante that this is not about my Pretty, Pretty, Princess Day, and I know that I love him. I was 16, engaged, and planning a wedding, but yet I was able to separate all the hysteria and hoopla of The Day and realized I was NOT ready. And know I'm 3 years older and a lot has happen in those three years and I think, scratch that, I KNOW that if I felt the same way that I did 3 years ago, I would make a change.

I may be inexperienced in a lot of things, not well traveled, have typos in my emails, or be able to buy alcohol. However, I've been through a lot and have never been more sure of my future then I am right at this very moment.